.the.teeter.totter.

ever ride one of those when you were a kid? always fun, right? although you had to have some kind of friend who was relatively close to your weight, if you wanted it to be fair. or your parents could just help you out and pretend that your little 50 pound body could actually make their 140 pound figure go up. i feel like that is what work is like. only it's like work always seems to weigh me down. on the other side, is my personal life/time. and lately that personal life weighed more than work. and now that work side is weighing me down. so i got a call saying that they need help with this proposal but they need me to work late today, part of the weekend remotely, and then on monday and tuesday. excuse me? yes, i wrote that correctly. late on a friday night. when i had all frickin week free. oh, i understand, mr. employer, that that is part of my job description. i believe the exact words are "employee should be at the beckon call of employees who are at a higher level than said employee". well, i've been the last man on the totem pole for over 2 years now. no room for moving up. no raise...yes, there was a decrease. i'm sorry, did i skip this clause in my contract? did they warn me that i would be making less money than i was 2 years ago? as i watch my peers at other companies get raises and actually go somewhere with thier careers, i'm sitting here, waiting for that beckon call to come rushing into the office on a friday night to put together powerpoint presentations. need i say more about this job?

ok, so i'm a whiner. i don't deny that. but i'm sure there are more useful things i can do with my time (even if it is for less money)...like volunteer...take a pottery class...paint my condo...pick my butt...pick my nose...water my plants...(oops, forgot to do that this week. hang on..ok, i'm back..where was i?)...so what i'm saying is...i'm bascially wasting my life away right now. right. can i make that any clearer? i'm sitting here watching elimidate. does that tell you anything? it's total white trash. granted my friend was actually on this show, and she is not trashy. ergo, she was voted off first. but this episode was actually shot in chicago, so that's kinda cool, i guess...where do they get these people?? they're dancing in broad daylight at this place called melvin B's, being outright stared at by complete strangers.stalkers even..where the heck is melvin b's?? whatever.


so ryan on the bachelorette is still one of the hottest guys on tv. can i say that enough? .so.cute. and .just.him. *sigh*

harharhar

.the.bachelorette.

ok, i have to say, ryan is hot as hell...and he's so romantic! that stuff is so important in the beginning of the relationship. but you know, it's all novelty in the beginning. i don't know if i'd be able to handle that throughout the entire relationship. i just think it's so cheezy. but i guess i'm cynical like that. someone being all romantic like that makes me think: ewwwwwww...is that wrong? and how did i get that way? who knows. that's probably why i'm with a. although he does have his moments that no one knows about. and i'm sure some of his friends can't imagine him being sweet. but he is. really. i swear. promise. pinky swear. ok.

american idol was sweet last night! love the drama! but i did feel so bad for that room that was told that they couldn't move on to the next round. that filipino guy was in it too. too bad. well, maybe next time. that really sucks. let me just pretend i know this industry by saying, it's a tough industry. so they have to be treated harshly from the get-go, right? but man, i was so happy that frenchie and biggie smalls made it! woohoo! if they didn't, i would have seriously doubted if i would watch this show for the rest of the season. oh, and hercules, hercules made it too. we're in for some major tv drama within the next 3 months. i will defo vote this season.

i finally took a bath yesterday, and it was heaven. i really got into 'the nanny diaries' too. good book. maybe i'll finish it today. but my muscles were so much more relaxed when i got out. so i feel a lot better now. i'm sure i'll be taking a lot more of those in the future.

gotta get back to my book...

.snow.snow.snow.

i just got my car cleaned yesterday (it needed it especially after that snow storm last saturday), and now today it's snowing again! blech...this sucks. i don't want to drive anywhere, so the exterior and windows don't get messed up again. i knew this would happen, but i had to get it washed yesterday because i could barely see out my driver's side window.

i'm watching that trading spaces type show - while you were out. man, these people are bland. no personality. even frank and doug on trading spaces have personality! the host on 'while you were out' is boring as all hell. she doesn't belong on tv. i could do a better job than her! maybe i should apply for the job. hahaha. watching this show makes me want to go to sleep. "then why are you watching?" you may be asking yourself. for lack of anything better to watch, i would reply. whatever, it's just noise in the
background.

american idol is on tonight! woohoo! so i'm going to watch that, and then meet up one of my high school friends out in the burbs. oh, and tomorrow i'm going to watch that 70s show. i don't know why i haven't started watching that show earlier. it's hilarious! "knock knock....who's there?...I DID IT!..."(if you saw the preview a couple of weeks ago, you know what i'm talking about). oh, and there's competition with the bachelorette and american idol tomorrow night too. what to do, what to do. i'll probably end up taping the bachelorette. (omg - the 'while you were out' show is horrible!...sooo not even partly-cheezy funny...i appreciate paige davis so much more now) i've decided to dedicate wednesday nights to the TV. good times this coming spring season...

i've just made myself some authentic starbucks chai latte...mmmm, yummy. i'll need to use my teapot next time instead of the pot. spilled a little..but it's all good. can't cry over spilled milk, right?

don't forget to watch american idol tonight!

.blind.surfing.

i find myself doing that a lot lately. just out of pure boredom. i try not to admit that too much, because admitting you're bored means you're a boring person. doesn't it? i mean, i am trying to keep myself occupied with "The Nanny Diaries" and all, but i'm still bored. it's because i have nothing to really work for in my life right now. and it's my fault. i keep telling myself that i need to work for something. but sometimes it's like i don't have a big enough attention span to figure out what i need to do with myself. i get so interested in other people's lives, i don't pay enough attention to my own. that needs to change.

so tomorrow, i will figure out what training i want to do. i will do more than read other people's websites to see what their mind is thinking. i will accomplish something more than buying those cute carpenter pants from the sale section at j.crew. (btw, just got those in the mail, and they fit perfectly..FINALLY a petite size that fits over my like-j.lo bootie) i will, i will, i must. otherwise, i fear that my life will forever be stagnant. like i'm just blending in with the background of other consultants who have yet to decide what they want to do with their life.

i want to do something that inspires me. that makes me grow up. ok, well, i will give myself props for trying to continually experiment and learn how to frickin cook. what a travesty. that is one of the only advantages of growing up in the motherland. maybe i would have learned how to sew, cook, and express myself with that tagalog. i am almost straight up a disgrace. and yes, i did just say that. i'll admit it. to admit it, means you can move on and work on it, right? so that's what i'm doing. i am no perfect person. but howmany people do you know who can freely admit that? whatever. enough with this self-improvement writing...so does that confirm my SAS-ness? (SAS = short attention span).

i made this chicken with oyster sauce today. reminded me of the good ol days of my dad's cookin. of course, my dish was not as good as his, but hey, i tried. and yes, i did add too much salt and oyster sauce at first, but i corrected myself. its all good. just a little water up in here, cook it a little longer so the water evaporates, and it's better than before. can't let myself, or anyone else who eats my cooking, get a side of high blood pressure with that chicken. next time i'll only use 4 spoonfuls of oyster sauce and not so much salt...

ok, so i'm goin to bed. maybe i can wake up early and start doing something for myself on the work front.

.some.superbowl.

so tampa won, eh? how wierd is that?? it's frickin tRampa! and that's literally how it was over there. with the people i was with and with mons venus. frickin mons! but i suppose mons will always hold a special place in my heart (*gag*cough*gag*). uhm...yeah.

so the weekend is over and i'm not sure what to do with myself. the weekend was pretty normal. hung out with mari, cheez and noel for most of saturday. oh, and of course, "the boys" - harvey, winston, and dexter. 2 of them are yorkshire terriers, i think? and i'm not sure what the other one is...but they're so cute and cuddly and huggable. i love dogs! i want to get one for sure, but i just have to make sure that i don't travel for work. but i want a dog! a shih-tzu. one day...

anyways, having a sushi dinner with my other family was so fun. i love their new house and dexter. we got sushi and chai lattes for dessert! woohoo! my most fav drink in the world was so deelish. mmmmmm...and cheez and noel are huge fans of it too. i bought some decaf chai tea bags and a travel mug from good ol starbucks. i think i'll go make some now....

ok, so while the water is warming up, i'll babble more about the rest of my weekend. we watched trading spaces at their house and afterwards, mari and i helped cheez download better workout music. ahhh, the wonders of the internet. (ok, so this alias show is just insane....i mean, how does she get that parachute gear in place while the plane is going down and she's just about to get sucked out it??. amazing. look at how far you've come from felicity, girl) then i went to another college friend's apt birthday party by greektown. it was like a real world audition, with all the different ethnicities in the room. but that's how our friend is. so it was nice seeing different people for once.

today we went to my cousin's kid's birthday party. it was nice seeing the kids and gabrielle finally warmed up to me and hung out with me during the latter half of the party. fun to see family too...although i think i might be going through family overload. next week is another christening, that i'm kind of 'required' to go to. more money to spend. and what do you get a kid for their christening? oh well.

so this alias show is getting too stressful for me. i think that's why i don't watch it. i can't really handle it. i'm more of a fun-loving bachelorette type of tv watcher. gimme my mtv and i'll be happy as a clam. that may seem so childish, but common. i'm all about watching tv for entertainment value. movies are what i watch for drama and laughs. throw in some romance every now and again, and it's all good. oh, and if it's a musical? forgetaboutit. love em more than my mtv. moulin rouge and chicago win hands down. i'd even choose that over my hugh. maybe. well...i guess it depends on my mood. sometimes, hugh is all i need. and then there are times when i just wanna watch musical after musical. alls i need to say is that i'm a gemini, and that should explain everything. sign if the twins, man. nuff said.

gotta enjoy my faux decaf chai latte...next time i think i'm going to buy the exact starbucks mix. i'm sure that will taste much better...

.oprah!oprah!oprah!.

i just love this lady. so cool. charismatic. and thankful. who knows if it's all an act or not, but the way she creates her show is awesome. going to these talk show tapings always makes me want to get back into trying to get into the business. that would defo be my dream job. just to work on a tv show. any show. not a trashy show like springer, but i'm talkin, legit talk show or a weekly comedy show. anything like that. but i just don't have the money to go back to school, and any kind of job that i want to get requires experience. but i can only get that experience if i intern, and to intern i need to be in school to get the credit. do you see where i'm goin with this? it's a catch 22. i don't have the money or the time right now to go back to school. it's called a mortgage. damn the mortgage collectors! and all the credit card companies! for now, i must be content with writing in this thing and dreaming about it, sippin my chai latte (or anything warm for that matter...it's damn cold up in here!), and wait for the opportunity to present itself. i could go out and look for it, but i really can't afford to. i swear, if i could, i would. like if he made enough money for the 2 of us, and i could do anything that i wanted, i would defo go for it. i wouldn't have anything to lose...but this world is not an ideal place...we all just need patience once in a while...

anyways, they said that our show will be airing tentatively on Monday, February 3rd. so watch out for it! i think we may have been in at least part of the shots because we were sitting right next to the railing where oprah comes out, and where all her guests come out...so you know how they zoom in on her when she first comes out....me and christine were right there! i was 2nd row from the top and christine was 3rd from the top. the studio is real small - but that was to be expected. i've learned that almost all studios are much smaller than they seem on tv. the camera does some crazy shots to make everything appear bigger...why do you think they say the camera adds 10 pounds to you? anyways, i'm pretty sure mariza was in a couple solo shots. the camera guy was right on her. typical. i need to remember to bring ugly people with me next
time...harharhar (JUST KIDDING! if mariza, christine, and alan are reading this...)

anyways, now i'm bored and i can't go to sleep! i don't know what to do with myself. maybe i'll make myself a cd. lets see...anyone know any good cds out there right now? shout out if you do...

.that.bachelorette.

i love this show. a little too dramatic at times. but still very good. too bad 3 of my guys were eliminated last night! rob, jamie, and bob. i loved bob! what comic relief! i still don't understand how russ was chosen over bob. russ just kinda bothers me. something about him... bob is so cute though! and hilarious! that's all that you really need to keep a relationship going...anyways, that's all water under the table now...(is that the correct saying? or is it water under the bridge?...whatever.)

anyways, that american idol audition show was hilarious yesterday. and tuesday. good laughs. i don't get how some people could actually think that they're good singers? and i think they're just trying to boost ratings when they let those people through to the judges. because you know there's a preliminary audition...and then you have to audition again for the 3 judges in front of the camera. so if you really are bad, you'd think that you wouldn't even get through to the judges. but no, they need some people to act as entertainment value. and it really is entertainment. but it's painful to watch sometimes. whatever.

anyways, the wind chill today is below zero....burrrrrr. it's so cold in my condo too.my fingers are almost frozen typing this...ugh. i was going to try to go to banana republic today to see if i can buy a matching scarf and gloves to match my hat, but i don't even know if i want to leave the condo. burrrrr...

oh, I'M GOING TO THE OPRAH SHOW TOMORROW MORNING! WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO! i am soo excited, i can barely contain myself. i hope we get good seats. we're planning on getting there kinda early, so hopefully we will be able to sit in the front. oh well. i guess it doesn't matter. i mean, we get to see oprah! i can't
believe i was able to get tickets. i mean, i was just watching my soap on monday afternoon, and watching the closing credits, when the announcer guy said that the oprah show is looking for people to watch a show this week. so i called the number...got the busy signal for 10 minutes...then finally got through...the girl took down my info and said, "ok, someone might call you later today to confirm your reservations, if there are available seats"...i didn't want to get my hopes up, but i was anxious. and an hour later, another girl called me! woohoo! i almost started screaming but contained myself until i got off the phone. yay! now hopefully the topic is good, or we get a free gift, or it's a celebrity interview. that would be the best. but i betcha it's not. oh well...who cares...it's oprah!

k, write more later....

.the.golden.globes.

ok, so i missed most of it. but i'm not complaining. i spent some girl time with mari-zat. the only thing i wished i was able to see was jennifer aniston winning. and i must say that i am upset the matt leblanc was ousted again. how unfair. he is seriously hilarious, and should be honored as such. so props to you matt. i've kinda gotten sucked into watching the postshows on nbc and E!.

anyways, mari-zat and i hung out for most of today and instead of actually going out for a manicure, we did them ourselves at the condo. not real ones, mind you, but a nice polish change. instead of using sweetheart, like i always do, i opted for a change. cherry crush by revlon. very vibrant color. very much what i needed for now. and i must say that i'm loving the red right now.

i think i'm staying at home tomorrow. gonna try to get me on a project. and karen will be chilling with me tomorrow night. we had a pretty good weekend. friday night i attempted to make dinner, but i really need a better knowledge of what to make and how to make it. it was edible, but that's about it. ugh. sorry. i'll try harder next time. promise. then saturday, we played whirlyball! i never knew it would be so much fun! it was like playing a videogame in person. it was a bit difficult to learn how to manuveur the cart, but it was fun learning. i was lucky enough not to end up with one of those horrid bruises. i'm kind of surprised because i did ram right into the side at full speed a couple of times. i'm surprised i didn't get whiplash. but nothing bad happened to anyone. i think they do need to install breaks into those carts. dangerous little things. afterwards, we had dinner at piece and my gaydar went off when we met our waiter. apparantly, i need a little calibrating done. (is that the correct verb to use?), because drunk christine asked him after dinner if he was. and he wasn't. it might surprise some of you that someone would have the balls to say that. but not with chris. she's got some balls, that girl. hilarious. she provides much entertainment for me whenever she lets herself drink more than she can properly digest. good times, i say. after piece, we went to bar thirteen. that place was packed more than i thought it would be. we luckily got a table and just chilled the whole night. we were there from 1030PM - 130AM. long time indeed. but it was good. i guess it is nice to go out to the bars once in a while. i will say that i enjoy the bars much more during the week when it's not crowded at all.

one of my goals this week is to go to home depot and pick up some swatches for the color of living room. i'm going for a taupe color. hopefully that will work out. i can see it in my head. and i think it'll look ok. i just hope that when we finally do paint this room, it all works out. oh, i have to look at that painting site and see if i like any of the pictures on there. hopefully we can get good prices...

i really think that i've watched too much of legally blonde. it's on again on the movie channel. i love watching it though. reese is an amazing actress. so much charisma. and she's married to one of the hottest actors in the business. go girl.

.chores.

well, i finally feel accomplished. FINALLY. i got some annoying things done that i have been telling myself to do for a LONG ASS TIME. here's a short list:

1. clean bathroom
2. scrub scrub SCRUB tub, so that i will finally be able to take a nice relaxing bath
3. organize bills into file organizer
4. apply for credit card with a special no apr/balance transfer fees(for at least a year), so that i do not
have to pay the current, horrid apr on my shishifoofoo couches.
5. train self on how to use new time and expense tools for stupid work

i think i may have done more during these past 2 days, but you get the idea. i FINALLY cleaned that damn tub. don't get me wrong, i cleaned it when i first moved in, but i didn't realize that if you don't use that tub, that square thing (could be a filter) gets stuffed up with dust and dark particles of which i have no clue where they originated. blech. i feel so much better now. like i actually got things done this week, and have less to do from now on. ha. yeah, right. still so much to do....

oops, gotta go...picking up archie at midway... hopefully there won't be too much traffic...


yay me!

.spiced.chai.

how come no one told me about the fabulous invention of spiced chai latte?! it is absolutely THE best drink in the whole world. i just bought some from trader joe's. mmmmmm....yummy!

so i ran 3 errands today and i feel like i've accomplished so much. i'm starting to hate the tv too. there's just nothing on. anyways, i dropped off my dry cleaning and my jeans that i need to get hemmed...(note to self: try to find a different nearby dry cleaner. i feel like i'm getting ripped off...$8 to get jeans hemmed?! is that normal?) then i stopped by the post office to buy some stamps. and i got the 'hero' stamp..you know, the one of the 3 firefighters at the site of the world trade center? if i have to buy stamps, i may as well contribute to the sept 11th fund. then i went to trader joe's. nice grocery store. a little shishifoofoo, but they had a ton of chai latte mix. mmmmmmm!

i think i'm going to hell. when i got home, i was walking to the front door, so i could check the mail, and this woman who was walking down the street yelled over to me. she asked me for $1.50 so she could go pick up her check. but i replied with my automatic response of 'i don't have any more cash on me,' even though i do, but it would take me a while to get it out. she said ok, then said 'it's just so cold to walk...' i said sorry and she went on her way. so i think i'm going to hell. i could have helped her out. but honestly, my first reaction when she walked up to me was that she was going to pull out a gun and make me give her all my money. and with that thought, my worst fear is starting to come true...I AM BECOMING AS PARANOID AS MY MOTHER...ugh. i knew it would happen, but i was hoping it wouldn't happen until i had kids. i just didn't
know how to react. so i reacted with my suburban answer. maybe next time i'll be more accomodating. i mean, it IS cold out...

that is all the news for today. i think. it's only 5:30, so that means there are much more things to be done today. i need not be sucked into the tv. and i will be going into the office tomorrow for a bit, so i will not be home trying to 'organize' myself. that is the goal of the week. organize and clean.

yay me.

.new.picture.to.the.justin.files.

yeah, so i added one new pic to the left side over there. and here's another one for all of you who needed a little pick me up.









*sigh*

i need to think of something to do with all these pictures of the j man...maybe i need to make some kind of scrapbook or something...riigghht. it'll probably just end up in some basket with some other magazines that i can't bear to throw out. that's the pack rat in me.

so i'm watching that movie, bounce, now. it's lonely watching movies by myself. but at least it's in the comfort of my own home. i had wanted to watch this with archie, but apparently it didn't get very good reviews.

i went back to the suburbs today. had some mail to pick up and then met up with nors at champs in oak brook. we always seem to meet there whenever one of us needs to talk. afterwards, we kept trying to think of a cafe or a starbucks in the oak brook area. there doesn't seem to be much available. it's amazing especially since that area is chock full of shishifoofoo people who would probably love to chill at a cafe. and there's a plethora of businesses around that area also. it's wierd too because everywhere else in the city and in the burbs, there's a starbucks at every other corner.

i'm going to see if i can get back into reading a lot again. this tv thing just sucks everything out of you. and it fills your mind with useless facts. and time seems to fly by. so you end up wasting your whole day with your eyes glued to that little (well, big, in our case) box in the corner of the room. i think i just have this love/hate relationship with it. i love it because i love being entertained. and this is entertainment in it's purest form. actually, i take that back. movies in movie theaters are more pure entertainment. but i digress. there are a ton of other things i could be doing with my life, especially since i don't really have to work. i could volunteer. didn't i say that i wanted to do that more, but i couldn't because i didn't have any time? sticking to goals is probably my weakest trait. i admit it. it's probably mostly because i have so many things in my head and so many things i want to do, that i end up starting some things and then move on to the next thing while i'm thinking of it.

time to watch the movie...


btw- for those of you who have seen the cover of this rolling stone in person....can i just say...HELLO! have you ever seen bluer eyes than those beauties?! *sigh*

.not.much.

i seem to be at a loss for words again. i don't have anything too interesting to say, but i haven't written in a while, so i think i need to update this thing...

i saw that movie, chicago, on friday afternoon. i knew i liked it, so it fulfilled all of my expectations. woohoo! anyone else seen it out there? i also saw that 'just married' movie with ashton kuchter and brittany murphy. i really love going to the theaters and watching movies. i completely understand when some people say they love going through the whole movie theater experience. mind you, i don't like paying the 7 bones to watch it (thank god for my student id with no expiration date), but i love the stadium seating and the larger than life screen. good times. good times. that smell of popcorn always gets to me, but i'm making myself refrain from it now...only for special occasions. but i love hearing the crackling sound of people reaching into their bag...fumbling around for a perfect piece of popcorn...and the crack, snapple, pop of the kernals in their mouths. it's such a movie theater sound to me. i think i appreciate it a lot because i never really started to go see movies until i was in high school. my parents didn't really ever take us...the only time i actually remember seeing a movie is with my mom and brother. the movie? E.T. classic.

it was jeff's bday yesterday...we got him a cool japanese noodle bowl with chopsticks and soup spoons. i think it's pretty cool. and i took him out to see just married. it was ok. but i think you can wait for it to come out to video. if you've seen the commercials, you've seen all the funny parts. it's a little ridiculous, but it's not too horrible or painful to watch. thank god for that. or else i would have had a horrendous time last night.

i ended up going into work this morning. had to print out some crap and organize my expenses. hopefully it's all taken care of now. i'll double check tomorrow. i think i'm going to drive home tomorrow to pick up my mail. what a pain in the ass. i'll probably stop by the post office too to fill out one of those change of address forms. i feel bad though. i think my mom didn't want me to do that so that i keep going home to pick up my mail. just another way to see me, i guess. how cute. but it's still a pain to have to drive all the way home to pick up my mail.

i'll write more tomorrow...i can't decide if i'm scared of getting laid off or not...

oh yeah....can i puh-lease have some suggestions for a new name for this thing? it's boring right now...

AND, personal to my buddy out there (you know who you are)...click on my comments box on this page (appropriately named: '.shout.out.') and then click on the link at the bottom of it....i think it's a link to haloscan . there are some other different comments services out there. just check your sister's site. ALSO, if you want a tracker on your site, click on this. christine also has other tracker resources listed on her site (i think) i LOVE the tracker because i can see who (no names of course, but enough info) hits my site and at what time...yeah, it's like big brother...isn't that awesome??! boohahhahahahaha...lemme know if you have any problems...=)

.clutter.

everything seems so cluttered lately. maybe that's the cause of the dream. physically and mentally, everything's cluttered.

so lots to do today to clean up. gotta get to it. this tv and computer thing is bringing me down...i defo spend too much time on both. so i will atttempt to not update this thing every hour. that's how it's been for the past day.


back to work...

.new.name.

ok, i've decided i don't like the title of this thing anymore...anyone got any ideas? i can't think of anything right now...shout out if anything clever pops into your head....

how bout this: .reality.groupie.

nah....help!

.the.messy.trail.

here are some pics from the tree cleanup:

.work.&.friends.

i guess i needed a little reminding, but those first friends episodes are hilarious. they're raw and pure humor. it's amazing how far these characters have come. joey was way thinner (not that he's that fat now), chandler was just as funny...ross's lines were a little bit better. monica was a little less neurotic. rachel was a spoiled little rich girl...and phoebe was the same. my how time flies. now mind you, i'm not just sitting here watching old episodes of friends...i have it on as background noise as i try to write my PA. however, my intent to just have it as background noise, is failing me a bit, because i find myself really watching and noticing how sets and their characters have changed. and they really are very funny. it's no wonder the show has been on for 9 years, and is gearing up for a 10th and final (?) season.

so my roommate and i are slowly becoming losers. right now our lives revolve around watching reruns of felicity on the WE channel. as some of you know, my roommate would be laughed at if caught watching the WE channel. mostly because he's not part of the 'W' category. but we watch it. twice a day. 6PM and 11PM. and when i'm here alone in the mornings, i watch it at 11AM. this tv will probably be the death of me. make that the tv and my computer. i am addicted...i admit it. but there is just a plethora of information at my fingertips, with both the tv and my computer. i can't help it.

i found out i might be flying back out to new jersey next week, for 2 weeks. you can really tell how valuable you are to your company when someone wants you to fly out 719 miles just to help with a powerpoint presentation. i guess some company's got money to spend. but it's all good, i guess...it is billable work, so i might be able to miss the next RIF. hopefully.

i really can't wait until my hair grows longer. then i'll get the highlights. i'm really getting bored with it all. and it's so tedious to fix after my shower. such a pain in the keister.

jeff and i finally took out the xmas tree last night. we decided to get it over with, since every time jeff walked across the floor, we could hear those needles falling off the tree and onto the floor. so you can imagine the shower of needles that rained everywhere when we had to move it even an inch. i took pictures. it's hilarious. we had no bag to put over the tree, so we just had to walk really fast to the dumpster outside...and it took me 1/2 an hour to clean up the trail that the tree left behind...the trail from the tree stand, out the door, down the stairs, across the parking area and to the dumpster. good times. hopefully i got most of the needles...

1/2 an hour to felicity...

.those.reality.shows.

i've been so sporadic lately with writing in this thing...it's not like i haven't had oodles and oodles of time...i have. i just don't know what to say most of the time. i don't know why i have spurts like that. sometimes i can't type fast enough. and other times, i can't think of one worthwhile thing to say. so i'd rather not waste your time with useless banter. but i think it's those times (the times when i can't think of one thing to say) where i have so much to say, but i don't know how to say it. now that more people are
starting to read thing thing, i'm starting to guard what i write. i'll leave that for my own personal journal. but god knows that i haven't written in that thing in how many months? just thinking that someone read my written journal, makes me want to avoid it. maybe that's why i haven't written anything. but who knows.

so did anyone watch that RW/RR challenge on mtv last night? that's some solid drama up in here...i'm not even quite clear what happened between everyone. but i've caught up on some of it from this nifty thing called the internet. getting information these days is amazing. and who knows if what we're all reading is the truth? it's really just stories to keep us occupied while we try to avoid normal life. as we procrastinate doing what we really should be doing. ugh. that reminds me, i have to do my PA for work.

so anyways, there's not much to say about that show...too much drama to even talk about it. the show did put melissa in a bad light. but before yall make your judgements, just read her commentary on www.mtv.com that might shed some light...

and about this joe millionaire guy - how sad will that be when he finally tells the truth? poor girls, but i guess that's what you get when you choose to be on a show which tries to match you up with a supposed millionaire. although i will say that the show had some hilarious moments. like when evan tried to get back on the horse, and he missed the first time and hit his chin on the horse...or like when one of the girls asked him what his middle name is, and he hesitated for about 2 hours before finally answering her. man, if you're gonna lie to these girls, you need to get your 'life' straight. i have to admit that the whole time i watched that show, i had this bad feeling in the pit of my stomach. like i was watching something wrong. i just want my amazing race back...

.finally.saw.it.

well, i finally got to see catch me if you can...anyone else seen that one? it was full of good times. fab entertainment. i absoblutely loved it! not just because leo was the lead, but because it was so well put together. the directing, the music (john williams is the best), the costumes, the locations. i love those movies where you're taken back to another era, and you get to see what the costume people come up with. it all contributes to the whole aura of the movie. if the costumes suck, you don't really believe the movie. but this one was good. attention to detail was paid very well. steven spielberg is a genious, but since when was that a secret? and john williams. he has this gift of communicating a feeling without saying a word. a
feeling that the whole audience unknowingly feels. you only realize the effect the music has on you when you really think about it. can you tell i love analyzing movies??

it was good to get out of the condo today. good to see different people. i think i need to do that more. get out and do more. that will defo help.

went to bar celona last night and met up with some old coworkers. good times for sure. i need to do that more too. now that i'm in the city, i really should go out to the bars more and more.

oh, and i saw the rw/rr challenge preview yesterday too. that should be some good drama. something else to watch the next couple of months.

i'm on the prowl right now for some comfortable city shoes. i should really wait a while though and pay off more of these credit card bills. but i'll look for deals wherever i can. i tried on these sweet pair of sunglasses today at nordstroms. i might splurge and get them sometime. i forget if they're gucci or d&g. but they were so cute. cost a couple hundred bones, but i want them. maybe i'll ask my brother to get them for me. or maybe just pay for 1/2 of it. or maybe i'll just save that present for when i decide to get tivo. hrm...decisions decisions...

.here.comes.january.

the start of the new year wasn't too bad. it was nice to see our friends all in one place...the countdown was a little dramatic, because my organization skills went down the drain, but what's a countdown without a little drama?? and everyone got a cheezy hat and some champagne/sprite, and we all threw those spiral thingys...good times...hope everyone had a happy new year!

it would be easy to say that i haven't written a lot lately because of the holidays but i guess that would be a copout. i have a lot to say, but not sure how to say it. so i'm just de-scrambling my thoughts in my brain first, before i say something dumb. i haven't quite been myself lately anyways, so whatever i write isn't really me. i'm not really feelin my last couple of posts. i don't even know what i've been saying. but whatever. the holidays are over, and now i can concentrate on paying off most of my bills. hopefully. i
just got an email about some impending layoffs by mid-january. mostly admin/finance/hr/it people...non-client facing staff. so i guess i'm lucky now that i'm part of the client-facing staff. but there are no promises that the client-facing staff won't get hit also. just cross your fingers...

i'm almost always surrounded by people, but there are those times when i just feel lonely. i think i've said this before, but the things that used to make me happy, don't make me smile anymore. maybe that's what's bothering me. how do people keep such happy faces up all the time? and how do they 'look at the brighter side' of things consistently? i guess it's part of their personality. throw some of that over here please...

felicity is on right now. it's the last season when felicity cheats on ben and things are all wierd with noel too...i really liked this last season, although i didn't really start watching it until this season anyways...we watched monsters inc last night too. that movie is just so cute. i'm sure i'll eventually buy that dvd...along with toy story...ahh, to be a kid again...

i love being on the beach...