.shout.out.

dude, what's up with haloscan's server? as they work out their server issues, the rest of us are anxiously waiting to see if someone out there has left us a cute little shout out. do i know the ending to this mind adventure? yes, i do. because it is a rare event when someone who reads this site actually leaves a shout out. and let me tell you, do i get excited. and yes, i do know when people are looking at my site, so whenever i look at the stats, i always hope against hope that someone will let their presence be known. but alas, my hopes are dashed. oh whoa is me.

.no.time.

so i have a bunch to write about, but i'm actually busy at work. amazing right? hopefully i'll get to this a little later today. hopefully i'll remember to write about my thai lunch experience. remind me.

.brutal.

there are many things going on in the world right now that are amazing. almost impossible to believe it's actually happening. that girl jessica who received the wrong heart and lung during her transplant surgery? i don't really know the complete story, but after reading the beginning of the cnn article, how does this happen? i mean mistakes happen, but this is a little more than a mistake. but the hospital must be in a ton of shit now. brutal.

and other thing that's almost impossible to believe. this couple from chicago (i'm embarrassed to be from the same city) is sueing some movie theaters for showing commercial ads before the previews at movie theaters...excuse me? yes, that's right, they're sueing movie theaters! can you believe it? i guess you can because americans are known for overusing their right to sue. overusing doesn't seem to be the right word. i just tried to atomica that word, but there didn't seem to be any synonyms for it. odd. anyways, don't these people have better things to do with their lives than sue movie theaters for taking up 3-4 minutes of their time? i mean, in the grand sceme of things, what is 3-4 minutes? if they don't like it, why don't they just come late to the movie? and if they want to get a good seat, why don't they just fake sleep through that? why oh why are these people wasting their money for 3-4 measly minutes? why don't they take the money and actually put it to good use. donate it to some charity. give that money to kids in the ghetto who can't afford a movie ticket. i'm sure they'd appreciate those movie commercials, since they're not lucky enough to afford a piece of entertainment like that. brutal waste of time.

and can anyone really believe the airing out of the last bachelor's relationship? that was painful to watch. seriously. i mean, it must be so embarrassing. but then you have to wonder why they agreed to this special? for the money? possibly. maybe helene wanted to do it because she's still so angry at aaron. who knows. but i felt guilty watching it. like i was some voyeur being let in on their relationship. brutal tv relationships.

on a tangent. ryan, charlie, and trista looked adorable. she seriously couldn't do better than those two. but what do i know? our perceptions of them are soley based on those powerful people called the editors. has anyone really realized the power these people have? they can manipulate the audience to feel the way they want us to feel. they must take some psych class before they're given the job of 'editor'. or maybe most of them are former psych students who decided they wanted to get into the entertainment industry, because it was more exciting. that would be interesting poll to take. and i betcha a lot of them majored in psych. but i digress...

that 'are you hot' show? i'm embarrassed to admit that i watched it last night. first of all, that music has got to go. how annoying, hearing that drumbeat in the background while each contestant comes out. and every time lorenzo says "hi insertnamehere", in that comeon voice, it makes me want to puke. "i've got a burrito down there and it's almost ready??" what?? if you saw the show, you know what i'm talking about...why do i subject myself to this kind of ruthless television? because i was in my hotel room last night, just finished watching the bachelor special, and looking for more ways to torture myself. last night's shows were worse than brutal. there isn't even a word that fully describes my feelings about it. and i won't even get into the complex that teenage girls are forming right now just by watching the commercials on it. is this what american tv is coming to? and is this what everyone wants now? a perfect body? i'll just end it here. have to get some work done before my flight.

have a good weekend everyone! stay away from that brutal television.

.that.70s.show.

so i thought i missed the episode where fez gets laid and walks into a room with all his friends and says

"knock knock"

"who's there?"

"i did it!"

i mean the previews were on weeks ago. and i just thought i missed it...but low and behold, it was on LAST NIGHT! shit! how could i miss it?! well...because of the bachelorette. and i guess if i had to choose, i'd choose the bachelorette...but still...i can't believe i haven't been addicted to that 70s show. did anyone else out there know it was so funny?? and if you did, why didn't you tell me?

.the.bachelorette.

unbelievable. that's all that i can really say. as a self-proclaimed, faithful watcher and website gossip guru, you would think i would be able to filter out all the untrue, spreading like wildfire gossip and the real leaked out gossip. well, this one slipped right under my radar, and i was just as surprised as everyone else watching. in fact, i'll admit, i screamed like a baby when she said that dreaded, "...unfortunately..." to charlie. sorry charlie...but you know he's going to get hounded by every woman who can walk in the LA area. either way, trista does win. she got to choose from 2 amazing guys. but in a way those boys win too. i mean, they get exposure and i'm sure would be interested in getting some dates from girls who approach them. but who knows if those girls are just fame or money hungry. whatever it is, they both came off well on the show. any girl would be lucky with charlie...how in the world did he not have a gf going into this show?

anyways, the day has been spent seeing what everyone's reactions are online. good stuff. everyone seems to be happy and that trista made the right decision.

so i can't wait to see aaron and helene tonight! good reality tv...what are we all going to watch next week??

btw - that celebrity survivor type show was so retarded. they looked so ridiculous. please oh please abc, take it off the air now. don't even try to think it could take the place of the bachelorette. save us all that agony, and put some quality tv on...like reruns of the bachelorette...puh-lease!

.February.19.2003.

HAPPY 4 YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO MY STUPID FLOOP.

.working.out.

so i've made a conscious decision to work out at least 3 times a week while i'm on this project. i really feel like i've made progress and i wouldn't be able to stand it if i let myself go like i did while i was in NJ. i can actually feel those things called muscles...you ever heard of them? i can feel them in my abs, my arms, etc. it really makes a difference when you consciously watch what you eat and when you eat. i just have to keep reminding myself of my goal.

i'm working on 4 hours of sleep, so today is not a good day to start this out of state work out thing. the flight was fine. got a whole row to myself. and i slept through most of it. woohoo for short flights. boooo to not a lot of miles.

i finally got around to making myself some fine cds this weekend. did i already talk about this? these cds are dope. better than dope. i don't know how i will live without them, if i ever lose them. the last cd i made was classic old school, r&b. the kind with jon b talking about his pretty girl and bryan mcknight counting down the cycle of how much he loves me. then throw in some jt and his girlfriend; and that, my friend, makes a perfect cd. you might not think bryan mcknight is old school, but these songs are to me. college songs and older to me = old school.

i figured out what happened with my corp am ex card. my profile data was incorrect. it had my correct new street address, but still had me living in downers grove with my parents. so the card got sent back. fooey. so i tried to get it sent out here at my hotel, but the operator couldn't dial the correct number of my hotel to confirm i had a reservation there. so i have to get the card sent to my home address and risk not having the actual card here with me, while i travel. is it so hard to find competent people to dial a frickin phone number? i hung up the phone, and called the hotel myself, and the hotel operator answered. did i not speak clearly enough? do you not know how to translate what you see on your computer screen to what you actually dial on your phone? could this be my fault? but i read the number to her twice and she repeated
it twice. so everything should have worked out. but alas, no. how annoying.

.what.a.waste.of.time.

i can't believe i wasted the past 2 months watching joe millionaire. how did i let myself sit there and get excited about it? that must be the biggest waste of time i have spent on reality television of all time. oh please, heavens forgive me for i know not what i do. i will try to be forgiven by not wasting more time talking about it here. but let me just say, that this show was one of the most predictible shows in a long time. i knew he was going to choose zora and i knew they were going to give him 1 million dollars at the
end. this is not rocket science people...

so i'm off to detroit tomorrow morning. and i haven't packed yet! oops. oh well. i'm used to packing up. and it's only for 3 nights. so i'll bring some workout clothes and hopefully make it to the ballys up there. wish me luck.

ok, sorry, i wish i had more time to write more, but i really need to pack.

oh, let me just say. i'm in major trouble now. 2 days until the anniversary, and i'm doing too well in the present department. but thank god he doesn't want me to spend a lot of money. but i don't think i'm creative enough to think of something nice and cheap! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. help!

gotta run. happy monday!

.on.the.road.again.

well, i found out friday that i would be traveling again for the next 2 months. where, you may ask? deeetroit. yes, another armpit of america. sorry for all you detroitians out there, but i'm sorry. it's not very exciting. and i haven't heard very good stories from there at all. great. what have i gotten myself into again? who knows. what else is new, right?

so the dentist appt wasn't too bad. i didn't feel a thing. i'm not even sure she used a needle, but archie said she did. she put the topical anesthetic on first with a q-tip. waited a little while. then put more anesthetic on...she was rubbing some gel on my gums and archie said that's when she probably stuck me with the needle. i suppose it's better that i don't know. but i was warned twice that when i go back and get my bottom cavities filled, it will hurt like a bitch. so i'm dreading that appointment. but i suppose i have to get it over with sooner or later. whatever. i now have to call the oral surgeon back and reschedule my first appt of doom. i was supposed to go this thursday, but now that i'll be out of town, i have to prolong this agony. ugh. anyways, i was numbed up pretty good. but then 2 hours later...WHAM. it hit me like a brick, and even though i took some advil, like the good doctor suggested, it hurt like a mofoe. i took another advil before the suggested 4 hour time period, and it still hurt like hell. i just wanted to pass out. i realized later that i just needed to sleep it off. but i had to pick up archie at the airport first. i had him drive us home for fear of passing out. and just like i thought, i sank into a deep, deep sleep. archie and jeff were talking so loud (you know how boys can be), but i didn't hear a thing. dream a little dream.

we were both so hungry, and our reservations weren't until 9:45PM. so we snacked a little before heading out to tsunami. good food. too bad i almost fell asleep through it. nono, he wasn't boring me. i was just exhausted. i'm not used to waking up early anymore and staying up late. so ti-red i was. but we made it through a very nice dinner. we don't usually celebrate black valentine's day, since it's so close to the real anniversary, but since we have both traveled a lot this past year, we may as well go somewhere nice.

i feel like i've had some bad pms lately. just in a pissy mood. i don't know what's wrong with me either. it's not like it's that time of the month. i mean, it's almost done. the pms period is supposed to come before...whatever.

i finally got around to burning those cds that i've wanted. i don't really know how to label them either. they're just a big melting pot of old school, recent, hip-hop, mix, pop music. just some good ol stuff all stuck on 1 cd. i hope i'm happy with them later...

i hope i get all this work stuff figured out before i leave on tuesday. i have some admin problems that are just a pain in the butt to deal with. admin work is the real bitch of work.

i'm just all over the place with this post. hopefully i'll be more focused later...

.should.i.be.concerned?.

i'm not sure if i should be flattered or a little creeped out that if you search for the following in google, my site is listed as #1: "pictures of boobs of trista the bachelorette" let me just tell you - i was not talking about trista's boobs, i was talking about melissa from joe millionaire. so it seems that
many people out there are looking for frenchie's alleged topless/porn pictures. when i saw how many hits this site has gotten in the past 2 days, i was so excited! where did all this here traffic come from?! and then i investigated it a little more and realized, that because of my comments on frenchie and trista, my site appears in several search engines. ahhh, the beauty of the internet...or is it just an invasion of privacy? whatever. it's nice to think for a second that i'm popular. harharhar.

so i made oprah today! (actually yesterday, Thursday's show) woohoo! i had 2 camera shots, although the 2nd one was horrible. horrid. wretched. blech. the 1st one was pretty good though - i was cheering as oprah came out in the beginning. i love the show. i love watching all shows. i won't get into the drama of not being on yesterday's show, where everyone (yes, all 300 of them) got free tivo. i'm sure there were people in that audience that don't even watch tv. so they obviously wouldn't even apprciate the wondrous, phenomenal, stupendous abilities of that technological gadget. puh-LEASE. god help me. all i want is a frickin tivo. cue the music....soooo close, yet so far away....missed opportunities. cry me a frickin river.

there must be something more wrong than actually just being upset with not getting the tivo. don't read this if you're tired of bitching about work. it all begins and ends with work just sucking ass. how did i let it get this way? i have no one to blame but myself. for not knowing exactly what i want to do with this career. for not going after whatever that thing is. for being so passive. or passive aggressive. i know i'm so lucky to have finished college and have a good job, but what do i have to show for it? nothing. i'm in almost the exact same position as i was 1 year ago. not any closer to figuring out the path i want to follow. i could take the easy way out and blame the economy or my company. but really. in reality, it's just me.


i wrote the previous last night....then i got sidetracked and started looking for jobs and applying to them...there's one that i really want, so maybe something will pan out...

we just won work out in san fran. how sweet would that be to get out there...a lot warmer weather. and annie and marcel are out there too...gotta go after that one..other than that, i might be going out to detroit..which wouldn't be too bad because i have several friends up there. but san fran would be a sweet location...who knows if my resume would even fit...

on a conference call now...no clue what they're talking about. it's like they're speaking a different language...

i have a dentist appt today. and i'm very very scared. help! i'm sure i'll write more later on the experience...ugh.

.oh.what.a.night.

where do i begin? it was a damn good night. not just because i saw a ton of people i haven't seen in years, but because i was drunk ass while doing it. no, i didn't need to be drunk while seeing these people, but you know...when you're tipsy, you're usually more gregarious than any other usual night. we all had a little bit too much to drink, which made my drinking a lot less noticeable. we started out the night with dinner and drinks at the condo. it was michelle, jeff, abby, richie, arch, and me. to my relief, they liked the food. they actually said it was really good. yay for me! =) i think i'm learning more and more how to cook better. then kathy came over, and we all laughed at how michelle couldn't get enough of jeff's cd burner. those things are a wonder, aren't they? then norway and his friend ken came over and that's when the drinking turned hard core. we knew we had to leave soon, so we wanted to get all liquored up before getting to the bar so we didn't have to spend much on drinks while we were there...remind anyone of college?? uh, yeah. that's ok...don't be a hater, just because we're smart enough to drink a lot and not pay an arm and a leg for it. you know you would too.

so lets see...i can't recall exactly how many people i saw last night, but let's just leave the count at about...20? 20 people who i haven't seen in at least a year? that sounds about right. so it was nice to catch up with everyone. i think we all need one night a year to see those perimeter friends...good times, i say...good times...

and if that weren't enough to warrant any fun-having, our night was even more enlightened when archie started sitting on this bench with his head in his hands...haha. mister bully himself had gotten himself into a real pickle now. people started taunting him, and i went over and sat next to him, asking him if he was ok. of course he refused my help...he finally got up and walked real fast to the bathroom. i asked jeff to get archie a glass of water...jeff found his way to the bar, got the water and slipped and slid his way into the bathroom. haha. classic. by that time, archie was bent over the sink in the bathroom..then he moved over to a stall and continued regurgitating there. haha. he finally came out and all was right again...he came back to the bench and plopped himself down. needless to say, we left soon afterwards. sorry yall missed it.

good times, good times. and it wasn't just archie who had the fun. the bday boy did too. here's some pictures just to show you how much fun he had...the first 3 pictures, you need to click on them in a row...all these pictures can be thought of collectively as 'bernard's cameos'...it gives you a good idea of how the night progressed for b...









and now the infamous bench pics...




and here's the link to the all the pics: .bernard's.bday.

.how.to.lose.a.guy.

christine and i saw that movie, 'how to lose a guy in 10 days'....omgosh, it was so cute! a defo must have in the dvd library. we're losers because we actually saw it on the day it came out, but who cares? is anyone caring about us at work? apparently not, because we still are not staffed yet. the movie is so good, that i'll actually go see it again, if someone asked me to go with them. it's probably the epitome of a date movie, and probably more like a chick flick...one of those chick flicks where you go see it with all your best gfs and then go home to watch the bachelorette.

went to joe's last night on weed street. met up with some coworkers. there was kareoke (is that how you spell that word?) with a live band...you would think it would be more entertaining, but it wasn't very busy, so the crowd wasn't too into it. but we did send our friend from out of town up there to sing 'no such thing'....he so shoulda been a boy bander. too bad he needs money to support himself and his fiance. his fiance briefly dated chad michael murray. anyone remember him? from dawsons? joey's bf her freshman year in college? the really hot band dude? he actually dated jen first on the show and then ended up with joey. he was frickin hot. anyways, he's from buffalo, and went to high school (i think) with him. so my friend's fiance knew him before dawsons. but i digress...

so the night was pretty fun. very laid back and met some cool people. we're all goin out tomorrow night too, so i'm looking forward to that...maybe we can all get happy drunk for once? i barely remember the last time that happened...it was probably when annie had her going away party and i got too drunk to support myself on the walk home to mariza's...ahhhhhh, good times...

have a good weekend. i know i will.

.good.old.dawsons.

so it happened last night. i watched the dawson's episode...and since they are now cancelled, they're going back to the real storyline...joey and pacey...can i just tell you how excited i am?! but it's a wierd excited. i don't know whether to be happy or sad that they're reusing storylines. they're kinda bringing this in from nowhere. but then again, the whole season has the characters acting out-of-character. so it's all just wierd. so what's going to happen now? are they just gonna relive their past because they both want to go back there? and then are they going to bring dawson back to them wanting joey again? where is this going? you would think that dawson and joey would get back together since they are supposedly "meant to be". but i really love joey and pacey together. and the way they broke up last time was very fitting. so are these feelings just resurfacing? what's going on....it's like this wierd middle world...the writers haven't done a good job this season at all...which explains its demise...so are the viewers supposed to be happy? sad? or be left with mixed feelings, like i am?

i must admit....i LOVE joey and pacey together. they're so cute...and pacey is such an awesome character. so sweet, but still has that edge. and when he acts so caring towards joey, it gives me goosebumps. sooo sweet. i'm a sucker for that kinda sugar....*sigh*

so give it up...if you are still a faithful watcher of dawsons, shout out below with your opinion...i have a feeling no one will be leaving any comments...i don't know anyone besides me and a who still watch it...

.american.idol.&.the.bachelorette.

can we say the fix is in? there must be a ton of young ass people doing the voting this season. i've read some things online and what i thought happened, just might have. for those avid idol watchers, you saw that 'misunderstanding' that happened between kimberly and julia. and i think because of that, and how the editing took place, most of america did not vote for kim to win tonight because she kinda came off bitchy. so i guess reputations matter a lot to everyone out there. if i had voted, i would have just voted for whoever had the best voice. but i guess if you're looking for the true american idol, you have to take into account their personalities. but i don't agree with just basing kimberly's personality all on that one incident, especially since the editing could very well be misleading...haven't we learned anything from real world?? i guess not. anyways, i hope kim gets that wild card spot, however that works. i didn't watch last season so i don't know how they choose for that spot. and is it 2 wild card spots? or just 1? that last show they have, do they have all the #3 people sing and america votes again for the wild card spot? or do the judges choose? whatever. we'll see what happens.

and that bachelorette! woohoo! ryan is awesome! sooooo sweeeeeet. break me off a piece of that and serve it as dessert! *sigh* what a hottie. i know it's all just the novelty that i'm attracted to. i'm sure i would get all tired of the sweetness. but he is soooo sweet, and seems to be a genuinely good person. and charlie's hot too, and seems just as nice...must be nice to be in trista's position. and break out the claws honey because trista was just about to use them on aggressive little russ...doesn't he know when to quit? was he even listening to her when she was telling him episodes ago that she hates being pressured?? i was cheering and clapping my ass off when she said ryan's name first...that meant she defo was not choosing russ, because there doesn't seem to be anything wrong with charlie...i do envy her, but i'm glad i'm not in her position. but she is damn lucky. 2 awesome guys.

.embarrassing.clip.

i probably shouldn't advertise this, since it is a little embarrassing, but click on my bff's link to the left (labeled ".my.bud" under the recommended section), and then under his post for wednesday, february 5, he has a video of me in nyc. it's cool, but hey, you'd think this guy doesn't have a job with all those edits goin on!...harharhar....jk.

.damn.dreaded.dentist.

i knew it would happen. but i just kept procrastinating. too scared to do something. but that weight on my shoulder just kept getting heavier and heavier. and as it got heavier, the more scared i got. so it's a catch 22. but i finally just did it today. yes, that's right. i dragged my sorry ass over to the dentist for my first cleaning in...well, let's just say a LONG time and leave it at that. so needless to say, my teeth are hurting right now. i saw some blood on my hygenist's gloves, so that's where it started. i found out too many things that i need to be doing with my teeth, and because i don't want any of you lovely people to neglect your gums, i'll share them with you here. although, most of you probably know the following because your parents instilled good dental hygiene within your lifestyle (my parents did not), but this can be a little reminder to what you need to do to keep those pearly whites glistening:

1. Floss, Floss, Floss
2. if you drink britta water, or insist on drinking filtered water, you're probably not getting enough fluoride washing over your choppers. so you have to rinse for 1 minute with Act or some other fluoride treatment every night. and you can't eat anything afterwards, so do it right before you go to bed. well, you have to let it soak at least 1/2 hour before you eat anything, so if you want to rinse earlier in the day, then it's all good.
3. Floss, Floss, Floss. some suggest that you should floss before you brush your teeth so you can brush away the loosened dirt and bacteria that may be covering your teeth. either way, just make sure you floss, ya heard? floss your gums out!

and here's a little tip i learned from my friend who's in dental school:
1. you should only use toothbrushes that have Soft bristles. these are the only ones approved by the ADA. you may think that the soft bristles don't brush well enough, but if you use the medium or hard bristles, those are just scraping the enamel off your teeth. if you use the soft bristles, they work well, if you brush your teeth for the recommended amount of time, which is 3 minutes. yes, this is a long time, but it'll save you the pain i went through today. ugh. blech.

so now i'm hurting and another weight has been places on my shoulders. i have to get all 4 wisdom teeth pulled out. and i have to get it done before i get 2 of my 4 cavities filled. help! i'm dumb! stupid! why didn't anyone make me go sooner?! why am i such a scardy cat?!? so i'm scheduled to get the first 2 filled in 2 weeks. and then i have to get my wisdom teeth pulled, wait a month, then come back in to fill in the other 2. i hope my insurance covers all this work.

the one good thing i will say is that they were very nice and scolded me in the nicest way possible. and my dentist is a nice young woman who probably just graduated and passed the boards within the last 2 years. so i'm happy about that. oh yes, another tip is that you should avoid those chewy sweets. chocolate is best! woohoo!

so i was going to drag myself to the gym this afternoon, but there's not enough time to do that and then come back and get ready to pick up aileen at 5PM. ok, so i'll work out tomorrow...promise. swear.

ouch. my teeth hurt.

.oprah.oprah.oprah!.

so did anyone see the oprah show yesterday? no, i didn't have a close up like mari and christine, but you could see me in a couple group shots, and when the guests would come out. very exciting. it was cool to see how little editing they actually do. she's a true professional, and makes the show flow so well. i can see why so many people admire her. she knows the business and works it for herself. i am such a big fan now, more than i thought i would be. but she handles herself fabulously, and that's what makes her so admirable. go girl!

so guess what? i went to another taping today! woohoo! alan got reservations and asked me to go too. we were kinda shady about it, but it all worked out in the end. the show was about home security - home alarm systems, burglars, how to protect your home and all your belongings. they didn't give us an air date, but they said it should air sometime next week. so keep your eyes and ears open! it was me, alan, alan, and heather. one of the girls who works the show asked us where we wanted to sit, and she said there were 3 reserved seats that 3 of us could take and 1 right in the front row! and i'm not talkin front row bleacher seats...i'm talkin, front row, front row! yes, that's right. one of us would be able to sit 5 feet from the oprah! so we rock paper scissored it up, and heather won. it all worked out because it was a bday present for
her from alan. go heather! so if you see a red head sitting in the front row next to a male guest that's her. i'll let yall know when the show will air...can't wait!

so i'm still on the beach as of right now, but i might be going to detroit sometime this month for another project. doing what, you ask? what else...system testing...ugh. do you think i can ever get away from that phase? apparently not. it won't be horrible, if i do get up there...maybe pocket some cash. we'll see.

joe millionaire was interesting last night. from my point of view, sara is the gold digger. so i think zora wins. but either way, it doesn't matter. he doesn't seem to be too interested in their minds...just what they look like. case in point - he couldn't help but stare at melissa's boobs that were conveniently falling out of her shirt...lets grow up, shall we? i mean, at least be smooth enough to hide the oogling...i guess he can't even do that...

so tonight's the first american idol! too bad i'll be out to dinner. but don't you worry, i plan on taping it. and don't forget the bachelorette tomorrow night...go ryan!

i have a dental appt tomorrow. just a routine cleaning. but i'm afraid that they'll find something more. and i probably can't deal with that. i'll let you know tomorrow...blech.