.should.i.be.concerned?.

i'm not sure if i should be flattered or a little creeped out that if you search for the following in google, my site is listed as #1: "pictures of boobs of trista the bachelorette" let me just tell you - i was not talking about trista's boobs, i was talking about melissa from joe millionaire. so it seems that
many people out there are looking for frenchie's alleged topless/porn pictures. when i saw how many hits this site has gotten in the past 2 days, i was so excited! where did all this here traffic come from?! and then i investigated it a little more and realized, that because of my comments on frenchie and trista, my site appears in several search engines. ahhh, the beauty of the internet...or is it just an invasion of privacy? whatever. it's nice to think for a second that i'm popular. harharhar.

so i made oprah today! (actually yesterday, Thursday's show) woohoo! i had 2 camera shots, although the 2nd one was horrible. horrid. wretched. blech. the 1st one was pretty good though - i was cheering as oprah came out in the beginning. i love the show. i love watching all shows. i won't get into the drama of not being on yesterday's show, where everyone (yes, all 300 of them) got free tivo. i'm sure there were people in that audience that don't even watch tv. so they obviously wouldn't even apprciate the wondrous, phenomenal, stupendous abilities of that technological gadget. puh-LEASE. god help me. all i want is a frickin tivo. cue the music....soooo close, yet so far away....missed opportunities. cry me a frickin river.

there must be something more wrong than actually just being upset with not getting the tivo. don't read this if you're tired of bitching about work. it all begins and ends with work just sucking ass. how did i let it get this way? i have no one to blame but myself. for not knowing exactly what i want to do with this career. for not going after whatever that thing is. for being so passive. or passive aggressive. i know i'm so lucky to have finished college and have a good job, but what do i have to show for it? nothing. i'm in almost the exact same position as i was 1 year ago. not any closer to figuring out the path i want to follow. i could take the easy way out and blame the economy or my company. but really. in reality, it's just me.


i wrote the previous last night....then i got sidetracked and started looking for jobs and applying to them...there's one that i really want, so maybe something will pan out...

we just won work out in san fran. how sweet would that be to get out there...a lot warmer weather. and annie and marcel are out there too...gotta go after that one..other than that, i might be going out to detroit..which wouldn't be too bad because i have several friends up there. but san fran would be a sweet location...who knows if my resume would even fit...

on a conference call now...no clue what they're talking about. it's like they're speaking a different language...

i have a dentist appt today. and i'm very very scared. help! i'm sure i'll write more later on the experience...ugh.