can.you.read.this?!

(hey a! can you read this? do you have access from the boat? hope you're having fun! i love you! and i'm lonely.)

so yesterday i went to g's 6th birthday party. good times. the weather was beautiful and little sab was as crabby as ever. i wish i had some pics from yesterday to show, because she's so damn cute when she's angry and/or paralyzed with fear. and so demanding! hopefully she will grow out of it.

yesterday was also r-ie day. working out with him in the morning, drove with him to g's party, then saw him again later that night at the desperate housewives party. good times. we were supposed to work out tonight, but he's in the burbs...i was supposed to work out tonight on my own, but i just didn't want to. so the plan is to work out tomorrow morning, 5AM. i have an early morning meeting (aka 9AM), so i need to be at work around 8:30, which means i have to leave home a little before 8AM. which means, i need to be home to shower etc, by 7AM...which means, i need to finish working out by 6:45AM...which means, i need to BE at ballys by 5:30...and what does that translate into? waking up at 5AM. yay. so after i finish this post, i will be hitting the sack. yes, i will hopefully be asleep before 11PM. 6 hours of sleep. hopefully that will be enough? we'll see...

i called athletico this afternoon and scheduled my first PT visit for thursday night. hopefully everything turns out well. 4 - 6 weeks of PT. please please please, let this solve most of the problem.

i decided i'm not going to stress out too much about work. i am going to tell that project that i am just not available; and i won't feel guilty about it. i'm tired of being stressed and thinking that i always need to make myself available for this stinkin project. if things don't get done, maybe management should start thinking about why we miss our deadlines. let's try hiring more people to do the actual work, and let's have less people making the decisions, who leave by 5:30PM everyday. and some managers leave at 2PM! i was actually debating whether i should call in sick this morning and just take the day off. it was so night all day today! i would have enjoyed just having an extra day to myself. i know i have a day off next monday...but a lot of people have next monday off...so it's not the same thing.

everwood was good tonight. too bad i don't know anyone else who watches it...i saved it on tivo, so when a gets back we can discuss. can't wait for 1 tree hill on wednesday too.

we have a happy hour at fulton lounge on wednesday for all the consultants who are rolling off on friday. i scheduled it into my outlook calendar, but i don't know if i really want to go...i guess i will, but there are a lot of people who i don't want to socialize with outside of work. it used to be fun, but not anymore. i need a break from socializing so much with work people. i know i know. i'll end up at that damn happy hour anyways. i bet my apple martini isn't even covered in whatever the company is paying for. cheapskates.

ok, long post today, but i'm going to try to update this everyday for a, so we can kinda keep each other up to date.

.early.saturday.

it's only 9AM and i already got so much done today. well, not so much, but a lot for a saturday morning. woke up to drive a and his dad to the airport. they're going on their last family vaca before we get married. very cute. however, a didn't tell me he was leaving today. i thought it was sunday. stoopid. anyways, now i have nothing to do. well...i do have a lot to do, but now the condo is empty. i'll have to figure out how to fill up my time without him annoying me every day.

so i got my emissions test this morning, after dropping them off. at 7:57AM, there were already 10 people in line! i guess everyone wants to get it done early on a saturday. then i FINALLY got a car wash. i haven't gotten 1 in months! i was debating whether i should go get an oil change, since it's been almost a year. i know i know. 1 full year?? i am nuts. i used to baby this car, and now i've just let it go. but the good news is that i don't really drive the car very far or often at all, so in some ways, it doesn't need an oil change that badly. or does it?? anyways, i'll get that eventually. so after the car wash, i bought gas. that's another good thing. because i don't drive it anymore, my gas bill has been ok. probably has not gone lower, with these outrageous prices, but at least i'm not spending an insane amount per month.

when i parked my car in our little lot behind the condo, i decided to clean out the leftover garbage inside. i didn't really clean it out THAT well, but it's better than nothing. i also fixed the rosary that's hanging from my rearview mirror (typical filipino). a month ago, i was in the car, a was driving and noticed the cross was missing from my rosary! i asked him about it (ok, i semi-accused him), and he said he didn't mean to do it, and that he just happened to hit it, and it broke off. so i started thinking, if you knew you already you (inadvertantly) brok it, why didn't you fix it? i still think maybe he was mad one day, pulled down on it, and broke it. but wortever. it's fixed.

what to do. what to do.

i was thinking about going to work out early, but i think i'll just be tired. i might just go take a nap now, then get up and either work out or clean the bathroom. i will hopefully get a lot of chores done these 8 days that he's gone.

*sigh*

.this.sucks...again.

was talking to a friend who just ran the indianapolis 1/2 marathon, and it made me realize yet again, how much i miss running. this really sucks. i can't even use any other words for how that feels. i know i know. a lot of athletes get injured. yadda yadda yadda. i shouldn't complain so much. but what else am i going to do? i love how a lot of my friends are getting back into running this year. i wish i was healthy enough to run with them!

when o when can i start running again??

i saw some movie trailers on madison and state and i took a walk with some coworkers around that block at lunch time. turns out they're filming 'stranger than fiction' here, starring will farrell, dustin hoffman, maggie gyllenhaal, and emma thompson. too bad Il Mare isn't around here lately. i wouldn't mind seeing sandra bullock or keanu reeves. then from mid-june to august, jennifer aniston and vince vaughn are supposed to be filming here too...

ok, time to eat dinner..then bed...then work all over again. blech.

.so.busy.i.can.barely.breathe.

everything at work is a "critical" item, so i barely have enough time to eat lunch. i did today because i knew if i didn't, i'd be a crabby person in the afternoon. too many meetings, and too much interaction today to be all crabby. i'm blogging when i really should be writing up requirements. shhhh, don't tell anyone.

the weekend was busy as well. wedding stuff, eye doc appt (my prescription actually improved! that's why i'm seeing blurry right now), 3 1/2 hour brunch with the fam on mother's day. and working out. i'm including working out again, in my normal things to do several times a week. hopefully i can stick to it, even though i can't run. --> which by the way, still sucks.

i'm probably going to buy a dvd recorder soon. if not tonight, then very soon. i think it'll help our tivo, so we can burn some of our tivo shows onto disc. i know i can probably do that thru my laptop. but i still need something for the bedroom, since my vcr is completely dying on me. i only bought it a few years ago, and the thing is already eating up my tapes! ugh.

ok, enough of a break. this week should be interesting...

.it.never.happened.

so i didn't end up having surgery. long story short, there was something wrong with the scope (the camera they use to see what they're doing inside your body), and they didn't find out until i was on the OR table! yes. you read correctly. i was about to get drugged, when the doc came in and said 'we have a problem. there's something wrong with the scope.' i thought he was kidding at first because everyone could tell how nervous i was. but he wasn't. i took that as a sign that maybe i should get a 2nd opinion instead of rushing into this thing. good thing i did, because the orthepedic surgeon i saw said that he's not convinced that i need surgery at this point. he said i'm still at the point where it could go either way - heal on its own or i may need surgery in about 6 weeks.

i know everyone gets injured once in a while and have to hold off on doing their athletic activities; but i'm not used to getting injured and this is the first time when i actually have something athletic that i want to do..so now that i can't do it for an indefinite amount of time...this sucks. i keep saying it sucks and i think i'll continue to say that because at this point, my chances of running the marathon again are slim to none.

so....this sucks.

i know i don't have much to complain about in my life. i'm not blind, deaf, i'm in generally good health...so i have a lot to be thankful for...i think i just complain to complain. i'm trying to change my attitude, but it's defo hard. but i'm trying!

this sucks. but i'm lucky...how's that?