.big.bird.

i normally wouldn't admit to my fashion faux pas(s) in a public forum, but since no one reads this, i don't care. i'm wearing this camel/pink based outfit (those of you who see me at work know which one i'm talking about). it's this camel/pink based skirt, with this pink mock sleeveless turtleneck, and a camel colored sweater jacket. i usually only wear this in the summer/fall since i only used to have these strappy camel shoes to wear with them. but i just made my first camel boot purchase, so i decided to try it out. it looked ok at home, when i put on the skirt and put on the right shoe. but this morning when i put the whole outfit on, i realized one thing. these boots make my feet look like big bird's feet. my ankles are relatively small (compared to my big ass olympia calves), and these boots are the slip on kind that go all the way up to my knees, but have no zipper becaues it's just supposed to slide on...well...i think these boots are only supposed to be worn with pants, so that the ankle part is covered. with a skirt, it's a whole nother story. and i think i read this one too late. oh well...so now i'm stuck sitting at my table in the conference room, too afraid to get up and pick up my printouts and go to the bathroom. i have to minimize my walks around so i don't draw too much attention here...but shhh, don't tell anyone about this faux pas...will never happen again...the secret now is to look confident, so no one will doubt this boot/outfit matching. that seems to be the key to life lately: just look and act confident and you'll get some game.

an example of the last sentence. i know of this girl who is obesely overweight. she's a friend of a friend of a friend (why does that always happen to me?). this girl is seriously like over 300 pounds. i'm not kidding. but apparantly, she's got game and bags all these hot guys. the key? she's a law student and carries herself with so much confidence, guys can't seem to resist her. now i know what you're thinking to yourself..."she's a friend of a friend of a friend??...how real is this story?" but i shit you not. this
girl's got game because of her confidence. so the word of advice my faithful readers (there's only like 1 of you out there), if you act like you have confidence, you will convince everone else that you're the shit. i need to remember that the next time my little insecurities sneak up on me..

and i know some people read this besides marcel, so doesn't anyone give a shout out?! do you people want me to beg or something? well, i won't. i am confident someone out there will eventually click on that little shout.out button and actually shout out.





please?

.another.thought.since.i'm.so.bored.at.work.

mw keeps occupying my mind today. i just had an im convo with one of my gfs and we started talking about guys and their bodies...and if we're talking about this, how can mw not enter the convo?

check out this hot.stuff then click on the 'Photography' link

need i say more? i mean seriously people...can anyone get any hotter than this guy?? it would be hard to imagine. (*phew*)

as you can tell, i'm lacking in words today. but this boy is just so damn hot. his body completely blows my mind. if you look at one of the pics on the site, where he's holding himself up on the side of the pool..it's one of the first ones that shows up at the lower part of the collage....the lower half of his body is in the pool and his upper body is out, with his arms holding himself up....i'm sorry, but can your triceps get any bigger?! they are seriously as big as my head! unbelievable....

i can't wait to go home..i'm just sitting here doing nothing...and i really don't like charging the client any more than they're paying for me this week...

that's it, i'm linking him to my site....

ok, that's it for now...i'm sure i'll write more later...

.short.week.

yay! i'm so excited now that this is a short week! i don't feel to much pressure at work to get anything done. in fact, i'm actually bored out of my mind right now. i finished all my tasks last week and now i'm just waiting to get more...

so how did the weekend go? not so bad, i'd say...i just hung out at the condo mostly. went back home-home to pick up some more of my stuff and my much needed mail...my mom was holding 4 issues of my people magazine hostage! so i went to reclaim them and now have some old news to catch up on...and even though it's old news, i still love reading people...i am just a people whore. but it's just interesting to me.

i became obsessed with stila lip glaze in vanilla at the end of last week...so much so, that i went all around the garden state plaza mall thurs night looking for it, but somehow they were all out! how does that happen? nordstrom and sephora were completely out of it..i don't get it. but whatever..i was so obsessed that i went back to my hotel room and ordered it on gloss.com...as a sidenote, gloss.com does not have a very intelligent site. their functionality and user friendlyness could be much, much better. but i guess i shouldn't complain that much, right? my order did go through, but if i see 2 charges on my credit card, i'm going to raise some hell....back to the topic at hand....i did go to nordstrom's in oak brook (i haven't
been there in a while and the mall is looking much better now) and they had a plethora of vanilla lip glaze..and here's a little warning - the lip glaze does cost you a pretty penny, but i think if you find something you really love, who cares what it costs, right?! who's with me?? (maybe i'm just trying to make myself feel better....)

so i am currently trying to book a hotel room on priceline for nyc for the weekend of dec 6 - 8th. i don't know if we'll get a good rate, but we can always try...i hope we're successful with something...

it's only a 1/2 hour later, and i'm still bored to death..maybe i should do my tex now, and send it in early...good idea...i'll write more later when i'm bored..

.communication.

has anyone in the working world heard of the word 'communication'? it seems more prevalent now more than ever. shout out if you feel me....

.the.bachelor.

poor brooke. the girl couldn't even watch the clip on good morning america where aaron proposes to helene. and she couldn't listen to herself talk about how she felt after aaron broke up with her. even though i didn't think she was right for aaron, she's still a nice girl. at least how she was portrayed on the show. while i was watching good morning america (forgive me katie, matt, al, and ann) this morning, i felt so bad for brooke. and i really felt like i was watching something that i shouldn't. it really is exploitation of the whole relationship. which is why i don't get why i do watch it. i mean it is fun to watch the whole process, but the aftermath....i just felt guilty. like watching people's feeling splattered all over national television and newspapers...is that really how i want to remember living my life? is that what i want to remember as bringing smiles to my face? in the end it really doesn't matter. i don't know if i'm going to watch the bachelorette or the next bachelor..we'll see...

i will say one more thing about this. when they showed brooke this morning on good morning america, they splashed this ridiculously embarrassing title on her "Brooke lastname...Rejected by 'The Bachelor' " i felt so bad for her...but hey, she did get that far in the process..but by that time, it didn't matter how far she went, because she let her feelings take over her want to win the game...and that's all it really is, isn't it? just a big old game.

i did watch the amazing race. however, stupid cbs put the victoria secret fashion show on during the amazing race time, and had AR on the hour before...so i missed the first 15 minutes of it..damn them! and then mj called around 7:45, and we talked for about an hour, so i missed the end and the beginning of the bachelor..but it's ok, because she told me her grandfather died over the weekend, so she had to go back to chicago, he passed on saturday night, and then had the funeral on tuesday. i felt so bad for her. first her grandmother and now 3 weeks later, her grandfather. i met them a long time ago, when we were both in high school, and they were amazing people. so sweet and generous and always wanting the best for mj. she was so close to them and they loved her so much. it reminded me of what perspective my life is taking right now. i feel like i'm looking at my life with the wrong perspective lately. i need to readjust, and maybe that will help my own mentality and remind me what i really should be caring about. not about how many points i get on united, sheraton, or hilton. not about all the perks we seem to be losing with this ibm thing. i need to concentrate more on what makes me happy. and what will make me happy. i need to take more advantage of the fact that i am alive and i am lucky enough to have a job. and if this job doesn't please me, i need to do something about it, instead of always complaining. but it's times like this where i tell myself that i need to change my perspective, and it works for a while..and then that bad mood will take over and i become more pessimistic. i think it might have more to do with that time of the month. so if i become more pessimistic, someone give a shoutout and remind me about this 11.21 blog.

then my other friend called to tell me her and her bf are taking a break after almost 3 years together. totally felt bad for her too. and she has an interview today...i just hope she doesn't let this stop her from getting a good job..good luck r.

back to the daily grind.

.frasier.anyone?

did anyone watch frasier last night? if you had, can you please give me a shout out? i heard he had open heart surgury...what happened??!

.technical.difficulties.

so i wrote the most recent blog all yesterday, but for some reason the site wasn't updated...oh well...enjoy...

.one.of.those.days.

so it's just been one of those annoyingly annoying days. where nothing ever seems to be right, but you can't really explain what's wrong...continual unhappiness. does this only happen monthly? maybe i should page through this thing and see when was the last time i felt like this...like when that annoying laugh just annoys you even more today. and all the chatter that you're usually immune to suddenly breaks through that immunity barrier...even with both your earphones in. just can't get away from it.

i think i may be eating something that is making me have these massive mood swings. and that is probably what is contributing to my being easily annoyed. i'm sure that's it. so i hope that this passes next week. i hope i feel more positive. like i was saying earlier on YM, i totally respect people who can be positive all the time. that's some hard shit to maintain. it really does need to be in your blood, or else you'll fall into the pessimistic category.

i'm looking for jobs online now. heard another rumor there will be 4000 more layoffs come january. some of us are secretly hoping to get that dreaded call...which is why i have to look for jobs now..i have to try to do this whenever i have the chance...

i just don't feel like writing anymore....

.true.to.my.sign

is there anyone else out there who feels that their horoscope is correct about 95% of the time? when it comes to rating your own 'Love', 'Career', and 'Health', it almost always seems correct. and does anyone else get those emailed horoscopes from www.astrocenter.com? it's like it was made for me. i can't explain how many times that email hit the home for me. too many times to count. and i am such a gemini, it's scary. i think that i do have 2 personalities. esp now. but maybe it's because i'm pmsing. so for those of you close to me (physically speaking), stay away until next weekend. however, i guess that's no one who's reading this. christine actually added me to her link list...if you're reading this, thanks for the shout out! i added yours to the list at the left...

the weekend was fun. had our non-housewarming-housewarming party. if that's the small list, i'm afraid to make the list for the real housewarming party. but whatever...maybe we can rent some folding chairs or something. it was so nice to see so many people all at once. people i haven't seen in months. people i haven't seen since they got laid off. good times, i say. and seeing kk this weekend was double the fun. she's always a riot to hang out with.

we saw pintig yesterday. good stuff. reminds me of those good ol' u of i days. i had forgotten what it's like to be immersed in the filipino world. i seem to have gotten sucked into this whole puti-business-yuppie-working-world. anyone feel me out there? i forgot about the days when i lived, breathed, and ate what it meant to be filipino. and now. what's left? nothing. because i'm not constantly surrounded by filipinos. is that good? i don't know. i don't think it's good or bad. as long as i don't forget. that's all that matters. don't forget where we all come from...

these weekends never seem to be long enough. always something to do. and by the time sunday night rolls around, i'm always in a rush to pay the bills and organize myself before i fly out monday mornings. i think i'm getting more used to it though. i don't really care so much what i wear anymore here, because there is seriously NO ONE to impress. i just need to get my shit done and have as much fun as i can here. but lemme tell you, my patience is wearing thin with people who just talk and tell stories just to get attention. and their stories just have no point. like, why do i care? i don't. but i'm just listening to be nice.

man, am i a bitch or what?

i'm usually not this harsh. and what's happening to my patience? did i lose it all by the time i turned 22? it seems like it. i don't know, but i need to get my act together. don't get me wrong, i love hearing people tell stories and if any one of my friends needs an ear, i'll drop everything and listen. but sometimes...co-workers just don't know when to stop....

maybe tomorrow will be a better day.

.trying.to.fill.up.my.time

so me and my novice html skills tried to update this site today. i've learned how to reference pics and stuff and hopefully this will all work ok. i tested it, and it seems to work when i reference a pic in my template. so hopefully this will work in the actual blog...










WOOHOO! IT WORKED!

YAY ME!

SHOUT OUT TO MARCEL FOR THE HOURLY HELP!

(now how much is the bill??)

.slower.and.slower

i can't wait to go home...i can't wait to go home...is it just me or is it that every time you're waiting or wanting to do something, time just gets slower and slower and slower....until it doesn't seem like time i moving at all anymore. i can't wait to relax... although i could relax here, but i just don't want to stay in the hotel anymore. although tonight, i might go hang out with mary jill in hoboken. i might call this other guy i know out here who i haven't seen in like 6 years. i met him in spain, and he's been to chicago a couple of times, but every time he goes to chicago, i'm never in town. so maybe i'll try calling him either this week or next week...

we had a team dinner last night at this sushi place we go to every week. this sushi place, kiko house, is like my nj home. i go there at least once a week, and yuki (picture a woman from 'memoirs of a geisha') is always so welcoming...gotta have something that makes it feel like home.

i really am just tired of all this work...hotel...work..mall...hotel...work...hotel..work...it's getting pretty monotonous. and i really need to think of something to motivate myself. because i am losing all motivation to do well here. i'm just getting bored. it's that damn gemini quality....easily bored. i think i need to mature more too, to not get so bored...we'll see if that ever happens...

1 more day...

.another.annoying.work.comment.

doesn't anyone realize that if you just listen to your coworkers, there'd be less arguments, problems would be fixed a lot sooner, and the conference room that you're stuck in would be less full of hot air?


that was just a random rhetorical question...but if you think about it, that's how this whole world works. we're trained into thinking that we need to get our ideas out first and that we're right. that's why there's so much dissidence (is that how you spell it?) in the world. there are very few people in the world who are willing to listen to other's points of view without some kind of argument beforehand.

anyways, i'm bored with that topic. another question: does anyone know the difference between a brazilian wax and any other type of wax for the area down there? i read someone else's journal about her experience, and i just don't know about it. made me cringe just thinking about it....

i have this team dinner tonight. sushi! yummy...although it's a good thing it's free, or else i would really be unhappy about watching my amazing race show....i am such a die hard fan now, i've asked archie to please tape it for me tonight. that and dawsons creek. i hope it works ok! or else i'll be very unhappy...maybe i should just get tivo. then i won't ever be disappointed...

gotta go - more unhappy work to do...

.i.remember...

HAPPY 8 YEAR ANNIVERSARY ANNIE AND MARCEL!


WOOHOO!!!

.1.more.nyc.comment.

for all you faithful readers (marcel), remember that blog of my first time in nyc with mari? well, remember how i mentioned all the good knock-offs? well, either the cops read my blog, or there was some other big mouth out there who caused the nyc police to crack down on those knockoffs...because last weekend, there were none. actually, lemme correct myself....there were some. but not many..not the plethora that we
encountered in september. and everyone we asked, answered curtly, "NO, we don't have these here." although there was this one italian guy who owned this store in little italy, just north of canal street. we walked in there...looked around...and he says to us in his italian accent "if you want to see the kate spades, guccis, or pradas, we have them in the back..but they're more expensive"....hahahaha...how hilarious is that? so make a note to yourself: no more knockoffs are available in nyc. or else you have to look REAL carefully.

the biggest thing out there right now are hats. every kind. many of the same styles at the different locations. i bought 1. mariza bought 4. harharhar....good times....

don't you hate it when you're forced to sit and listen to your coworkers? i'm not being mean, or anything, but i'm talkin about listening to them tell the same damn stories, over and over again...ugh. and the stories are always about them, even though you never even asked to hear the story! i find myself in that situation every day. it's just those certain people who always feel they need attention and they need to always talk about themselves and their lives, even though almost everyone in the room has already heard the damn story 10 times already! k, that's my big gripe for today.

i had dinner with an old high school friend late last night in hoboken. her stories are so damn funny. she is the epitome of drama. can't get any worse. actually, it could, but it's pretty bad already. i feel bad for her. but it wouldn't be her life, if it didn't happen like that...

i have this team dinner tomorrow and i'm kind of *required* to go to. i might miss my amazing race episode! i can't do that! i have to find a way to tape it. hopefully jeff can, or archie can get to the condo in time to tape it...please please please...i HAVE to find a way to see it...

i know i have more to say, but i can't remember right now...maybe i'll write more later....

.nyc.

ahhhh...have i mentioned before how much i love nyc? i absolutely love it. maybe once the novelty wears off, i won't love it as much. but right now, i love it. it was fabulously beautiful, especially this past friday. the sky was clear blue and the temperature was up to the 60s! 60s in november! can you believe that? we took advantage of it by walking around central park for several hours. lemme back up...

.friday.
woke up before the butt-crack-a-dawn, so that we can hopefully take the 1st train out to nyc...why do we need to get to nyc early, you ask? well, i wanted to finally see my fav morning show - the today show! and can you believe my luck when i found out earlier that week who would be performing in the middle of rockafeller center that friday? if you're an avid reader of this site (and you're probably not), you'll know who i'm talking about with 1 guess. yes, that's right. my #1 guy who i would leave arch for! Justin. can you believe my luck?? the 1 weekend i spend in nyc and my favorite performer is performing on my favorite morning show! so you can imagine my anticipation that morning. and the excitement! but of course, you can't get to nyc without a little drama mama. to make a long story short (and because i don't feel like writing out all the sorry little details), we left the sheraton around 5AM. realized my headlights were not working. stopped on the side of the highway before we got on the turnpike. and saw that someone jacked the headlights out of my rental!...while it was parked in the hotel parking lot...with a security car driving around the lot all night! unbelieveable! only in jersey, i say...anyways, we had to fill out these forms at the budget office. and apparently this happens ALL THE TIME with their maximas. but usually in the city. that's why, they said, they don't allow their maximas into nyc anymore. so be careful, faithful readers. if
you ever get a maxima in jersey or nyc, be assured that your headlights will most likely be stolen. how embarrassing. (hrm, i guess that story is kinda long...sorry! i'm so verbose)

so we get through that delay, hop on the train from the airport to nyc...i'm thinking, ok, so we'll be a little late, but maybe there's a chance we can still see him...we're sitting on the train...and what happens? another delay. 4 trains ahead of us, 1 train is stopped on the tracks. so we're delayed another 20 minutes, when it only takes 20 minutes to actually get to nyc penn station...i'm thinking we're doomed. thinking it's not meant to be...

we finally get to the city, hail a cab, and check our bags into the grand hyatt. then we haul ass to the show. the walk was nice...part of the reason i love nyc. we find rockafeller center, and see that the stage is real close to 49th. we're actually standing behind it, but there are barricades blocking us from getting closer. so i ask the nice cop, "how do we get in there?" and he says in his thick nyc accent, "The entrance is on 48th street". so we go around and through security, and finally get within the barricades. but then there's 1 problem. there are so many people there, and the stage is so damn low to the ground that we can't see ANYTHING. and we don't realize that we won't be able to see justin until he actually gets out there and
performs. we seriously didn't even see his bobbing head. the stage was that low. everything on tv always looks bigger. but the 1 high point is that we did see katie and matt! woohoo! katie is so cute and they look just like they do on tv. except they're right, the camera does add 10 pounds to you. i got a couple good pics of katie and matt, but again, it was hard because we were so far back. i'd put my pics up right up here, but i don't have a web hosting service....so here's the link

afterwards, we stopped in the dean and deluca cafe, the nbc experience store to get my 'what a difference TODAY makes' magnet (how chessy!), and then headed uptown to the metropolitan museum of art...i felt so bad because i do love going to art museums, but i was so tired that i was walking around the museum like a zombie. literally falling asleep as i was walking. i felt like i was going to pass out a couple of times. afterwards, we
ended up hangin in central park. walked along the hills, and chilled on the grass. we walked from the museum to the south end of central park. long way, but well worth it. made me fall in love with nyc even more...

that's the gist of friday...we ended up checking into the hotel and then passing out for 5 hours, until mari called us to go out. we didn't go out with mari and rach, we wanted to walk around times square at night...so much fun...

.saturday.
wtc site. shopping in soho with mari and rach. dinner in little italy with jackson, mari, rach, & arch. out to exit (WARNING TO ANYONE CLUBBING IN NYC: do NOT go to exit. even if someone pays you. it's NOT worth it. it's not a 21+ club. nuff said). took a cab to the village to try to salvage the night, but we got down there at 4AM and everything was closing. so we just got something to eat down there. good times.

.sunday.
ate at leo lindy's (you know, that diner you always see underneath the mtv studios). WARNING: DO NOT EAT THERE. can you imagine paying 17 bones for 3 eggs, dried up bacon, fries, and wheat toast??....geez, just because they're under the mtv studios, you'd think they can charge anything! we actually saw 3 groups walk out after looking at the menu. i admit, we were suckers, but whatever. it's not like we do it all the time, right? then afterwards, me and arch just walked up and down 5th ave. it was so sweet...we had such a good time...the only bad thing at the end of the trip was that since there were such bad storms yesterday in the midwest, arch was delayed sitting on the plane for 2 hours, then they had to take another route to chicago which added an hour to their flight time. my poor poopie. good times. good times.

can't wait for nyc again in december...woohoo!


sidenote: did anyone see the sopranos last night? can we say a little gruesome?? geez. but i guess that's all good stuff. they took all the background music out, which directly affects the tone. those writers are damn good. applause. applause.

.ok, so.i'm.biased.

ok, so please please, take my word for it. that cd over to the left there? it's good. now if i didn't think it was good at all, i would have said so, and made an excuse like 'well, at least he's hot, and i don't care if it's not that good, because i could stare at him for the rest of my life and die happy.' but it's seriously good. just chill music. only 1 real ballad at the end 'never again'. now after much speculation, that title could refer to someone in particular, but justin did say that he changed some of the
songs to throw people off the justin-britney relationship track. so who knows if anyone will really know what happened with them....and does it really matter now? no. lets face it people, it was just a relationship...people break up all the time...and eventually everyone will get over the shock of it all.

so let me just say that the very first song on this cd, seniorita, is dope.

i don't really like work anymore. i'm bored. and i hate unorganization. HATE IT.


dawsons is on tonight. yay! but the amazing race isn't. total downer for this wednesday. i better get going or else i'll miss my dawsons...

.the.joy.of.work.

it's not a good sign when you start off the week being annoyed at the work environment you're stuck in. but i mean, how many times can you listen to the same stories over and over and over again? well, i swear today was like that movie groundhog day. even though i've never seen it, i've read many references to it. and if we were to base today just on the stories that were told in that tiny room with 8 other people, then it would come straight from that movie. ugh. maybe it was just because i was sleep deprived today. but i don't think so. those people just need to think of new stories to talk about or just not say anything at all. how bout that?

i was dying today. i don't know if i can last in that dark room unti the end of the year. i need to think of something to make myself more alert during the day. i probably just need to take more breaks. but it's wierd walking around that office with no aim. and you can hear people's footsteps from all the way across the floor. oh well. i just need to make sure i don't get too bothered during the day. efficient and persistant.

i'm watching that barbara wawa special with you know who. the promos totally made it seem like the whole hour was on j. those sneaky tv people. of course they're not going to have the whole hour on j. what was i thinking?? the interview only took about 30-35 minutes. and now they've moved onto this star search/american idol etc tangent. i guess it's interesting, but common, lets get back to the topic at hand. who's cd is coming out tomorrow?? lets not forget friends, that when you wake up tomorrow, you get yourself up, go to work, and then get yourself over to best buy or some kinda store that sells cds and pick yourself up a copy of 'justified'. and for those of you who say you're too "busy" to go out and buy the thing, i've added a handy dandy link over to the left of this blog. just click on that bootieful picture and order your very own copy. got it? good.

.anyone?.

at the risk of sounding like a teeny bopper (uhm...i may have already crossed that line), i just want to throw this question out there. did anyone watch the jay leno show last night??! uhm, yeah....hello!!!! did i not mention before how beautiful he moves?! is there anyone reading this who can disagree with me now?? and if you can, you better .holla. and give me some damn good reasons. and i will quickly discount your tastes and mental note that i should not trust your judgement again.

just had to shoot that one out. back to worky work. blah.