.start.of.the.weekend.

as usual, i'm the only one here in the office. but that's by choice. i have some unfinished business to do - this condo stuff, credit card payments, car payments, etc. just putzing around. going to meet mariza after she flies in and then meet up with archie when he flies in too. so, i may be a loser, still at the office, but who cares? i don't really care what these work people think anyways - except for my original, immediate team.

ever find a friend who is so generous, you don't know how to pay him back? well, i have this one friend who just out-gives anyone i've ever met in my entire life. totally surprised me. i casually mentioned to this friend that me and mari are going to be in nyc and that we should try to hook up while we're there. here is the rest of the IM convo, (almost word for word):
friend: where are you staying?
me: we found out that neither of us have enough points to stay anywhere, so we're still trying to find a good deal on a hotel...
friend: what nights will you be there?
me: fri, 20th and sat, the 21st
friend: hey.. i can book two hotel nites for ya'll in nyc.
me: you can?, using your points?, you don't have to do that!, but thanks anyways!
friend: no probs... fri and sat, right?
me: wait wait - you don't have to!
friend: i've been living in a hotel for the past year and a half..
me: seriously, it's so nice of you, but you can use those poitns for yourself!
friend: hahaha... there's plenty more... so, fri and sat nite, right?
me: i would feel totally bad.....seriously, you dont' have to!
friend: don't worry about it... , let me set that up and i'll give u the info.
me: are you sure?, how many points do you have??
friend: i can't count that high
me: seriously, you don't have to....
some time passes
friend: done. (he IMed me the hotel info)

can you believe that?? i know some of you might be thinking that i didn't try hard enough or that he's expecting something *wink*wink* when we go there, but he won't even be in town! it turns out that he's flying his friend out to where his project is that weekend, so he probably won't even be there when we are! can you believe that? he did it like it was nothing! so selfless. anyone out there have a friend like that? absolutely amazing. so me and mari will have to think of a good present to send him. b gave me a good idea this afternoon, so we might have to do that. more details later.

another thing i realized today, again is that i really don't like this project. some people may make it better, but as soon as those people are gone or on vacation, the rest of the project just gets worse and worse. the atmosphere is just horrible. i'm going to try and get myself off this when i can. get me out now, please.

ok, mari's plane landed. i'm outtie. have a great weekend everyone! - i know next week is gonna be filled with surprises!

positively.
i was going to name this blog with 'regrets,' but i didn't want to start out negatively. i felt so bad this morning after i left home. i didn't mean to snap at dad. just another misunderstanding. but i was just annoyed that he didn't listen to me again. i keep forgetting the simple rule of 'patience. persistence.' patience is a big deal. and so easy to forget. i'll try harder next time. promise.

so i heard good news yesterday, but i can't tell ANYONE. no one probably reads this blog anyway, so i can probably talk about it on here and NO ONE WILL KNOW!....harharhar. jk. i would never do that. pinky swear.

i finally saw the last 15 minutes of american idol last night. FINALLY. everyone's so amazed that i didn't watch it from the beginning. and actually, i'm surprised too. but i really didn't have time to watch tv when the show started. and it was probably better that i didn't start watching it because that would just be another show to keep up with. speaking of shows, AMC is getting good. but brooke is hella annoying. i mean, i feel sorry for her and all, but seriously, she really needs to just get on with her life. just the way she acts annoys me. her cheekbones are outta control too. they're extra puffy. like silicones hiding up in there. and GH is good too. but seriously people, just show frickin brenda's face already! shit, the whole world knows she's back, it's in the promotions, so just show her damn face! it's not a mystery anymore!

i've been sitting in this client meeting all day. so boring. i guess it's ok, because i'm learning more, but i don't know about this. we just need new managers. that's it.

i found out another one of my friends is getting laid off tomorrow. but she's so happy about it. we were talking at lunch about it. she can do so many things. i mean, she is so totally FREE. she still lives at home and has ZERO bills.

and since i started this out 'positively', i'll end it on a sarcastic 'negative' note. check this out: www.despair.com - for some reason i can't hyperlink this, so cut and paste, please!


HAPPY HUMP DAY!

ugh.

so i'm staffed again. on this damn project AGAIN. UUUUUUGUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i can't seem to get away from here...at least my old team members are back. yahoo for that. that's the only saving grace. god knows it's not the client who's bringing me back. and i really wanted to travel too....

so my RM just emailed me about this Virginia project. it's doing work that i don't want to do, but the huge plus is that i'd get to travel. i just called the guy and he did not answer, so now i just have to wait. great. we'll see what happens.

i just need to go home. bye.

i guess the writing was on the wall?...

one of my close friends is getting the boot tomorrow. ironic how it's always one of the people who always jokes about being the 'chosen' one, the 1st one voted off when the 2 tribes merge...blessing in disguise, i think. maybe then he'll be able to actually do what he really wants to do, instead of this seemingly dead end job. that's where most of us seem to be lost in our lives. what do we really want to do? not many of us know what path that is. we end up just allowing our lives to follow the richer path, the direction that gives us the most monitarily, not emotionally or spiritually. there are not many people who are strong enough to do that. but then again, there aren't many people out there who have the financial freedom to really do what they want to do. since what we usually want to do doesn't pay nearly enough to live on. but maybe if most people weren't as materialistic in this world, then they'd be able to do what they want to do. we're all a product of our environment. me especially. there was so much emphasis on material things and surrounding myself with the most beautiful things i can afford as i grew up. i guess i'm just used to it now. i could say that it's all that i know? but we all have the power to change anything in our lives. and if we don't like being materialistic, we can always change. no one makes us do anything. we all choose to do what we do. the question is, do we have the strength to change from what we're used to?

i messed up my car today. i've realized i'm becoming more and more careless with stuff. not a good attitude to have. i really need to be more careful with how i treat it. see, our old air conditioner is out at the end of the driveway...i was leaving my house to go workout, and our neighbors (a mom and her little 1year old daughter - i'm just guessing how old she is) were walking on the sidewalk. the little girl was so cute, and i was watching her while i was backing out, when BAM. i scrapped the driver's side of my back fender. teaches me another lesson. i need to just take better care of my damn car, if i want it to be worth anything in the future. damn that air conditioner. and damn me for allowing myself to be distracted.

it really is much harder to lose that last 10 pounds. i've been doing a lot more cardio, and of course when you work out a lot more, then you tend to eat more because your metabolism increases. i just need to remember that i need to eat less than my brain tells me to, if i want to lose that extra mass.

i don't know what to do with my hair. it's right at that in between stage right now. which means i'm right in between deciding whether to cut it or let it grow out. i just need to find a good picture of some kind of hairstyle that i want. that's the problem. i just don't know what i want. i love my hair short. but i feel like it's a little played out right now. so maybe i'll grow out my hair to a cute little bob. but i love the flipped out bottom part. so i have to incorporate that somehow. it's just hard sometimes to keep the flipped out hair, flipped out. ugh. i bet you in a couple of weeks, i'm just going to cut it off again.

going into the office tomorrow. i'll probably write more then...

long time no write.

i don't know why i haven't written in a long long time. i just didn't feel the need. it's not like i haven't had the time. i have. but there hasn't been anything too exciting. well...that might not be completely true. i went on our team go-live outing last thursday - friday. that was more fun than i could ever explain here. it really was. good times for almost everyone. and it was a sight seeing some people trashed. including me. i haven't been that gone in a very, very long time. from 1PM - 2AM. that's a record for me. maybe not for some people, but for me, defo. i just couldn't help it. if it's free, we need to take advantage of it, right?! i know yall are saying yes. well, i agree. and i sure did take advantage of everything that was free. i did take some good pictures too. something to remember this team by. i'd put up the link to the pictures, but i can't disclose that kind of information. too confidential. =)

i got my new laptop today. the good news is, is that there seems to be much more room on this one than my last one. the bad news - they erased all the mp3s i had on here. oh well. it was only 1/2 of them. less than 1/2. and i couldn't transfer them to issam's computer because i ran out of time. oh well. i did save all my pictures. thank god for that. i would probably have died if i lost those digital pictures.

anyways, i'm out. meeting up with rach and christine. and i have to wait for archie to fly in tonight. frickin 1AM. oh well. it's the least i can do...

have a great weekend!

.awesome.weekend.

this weekend was so much fun. .saturday. started and ended the day with annie and marcel. we were at the same place exactly 1 year before. only this time i was able to remember walking home. and i didn't go to the bathroom at all at big wig. the bbq at mariza and rachel's was fun fun fun. just drank it up, and by 8PM, i was buzzing. woohoo. but it was fun talking and catching up with everyone. then, on to big wig. it was like a college, psa reunion. wierd seeing everyone. ex-es, etc...hahaha i won't even talk about that.

.sunday. woke up late and hung out. just chilled the whole day. good times.

i guess i'm not much for talking right now. i don't have much to say. write more later.

.'make me whole'.amel.larrieux.

Darlin I want you to listen,
I stayed up all night,
So I can get this thing right.
And I don't think,
There's anything missin'.
'Cause a person like you,
Made it easy to do.

I've waiten for so long,
To sing to you this song.

Cause your eyes are the windows to heaven,
Your smile could heal a million souls.
Your love completes my exsistence.
Your the other half that Makes Me Whole.
Your the only other half that Makes Me Whole.

I think the angels are your brothers (ya ya)
They told you about me.
Said your just what she needs.
And I find myself,
Thanking your mother.
For giving birth to a saint,
My spirit flies when I say your name.

If theres one that's true,
It's that I was born to love you.

(and) Your eyes are the windows to heaven,
Your smile could heal a million souls.
Your love completes my exsistance.
Your the other half that Makes Me Whole.
Your the only other half that Makes Me Whole.

You make my dreams,
Come true over and over again.
And I honestly, truely believe,
You and me are written in the stars.

And in my whole life through,
Just given thanks to you.

Cause your eyes are the windows to heaven.
Your smile could heal a million souls.
Your love completes my exsistance.
Your the other half that Makes Me Whole.
Your the only other half that Makes Me Whole

.update.

so i haven't written in a while. nawlins was awesome. so much fun. true, it was smelly and little too dirty for my tastes. but all in all, it was a good time to party and just enjoy being in a different city, state for a weekend. bourbon street was great for one night. one night of getting drunk. and buying my beads. yesh, that's right people, i bought the damn beads. i wasn't about to go around showing my boobs to the world. in fact, i wouldn't have cared, but we were with 2 other girls who i didn't know very well, and that would not have made a good impression.

fyi: i hate harrah's casino. H.A.T.E. they just straight up took my money from me. only won like once and then they didn't even have the decency to wait to take it back. they just straight up took it back, like it was theirs or something! how rude.

so our pm threatened us today that if we don't make ourselves available this saturday, then we will be rolled off the project without getting rolled back on when and/if phase 2 starts. would that be so bad? maybe not. but i just can't afford to lose my job now. not when we're so close to closing on the condo. how will i ever find a job in time? but alls i can do now is just be positive about it. but i will not sacrifice my already made plans just to work. i'm tired of doing that. but in the end, i might end up doing that anyways. who knows. i can get weak when it comes to work.

i'm going to sleep now. gotta catch my Zs for that oh so exciting conference call tomorrow at 9 in the A.M. blah.

.going to the big easy today...

i'm off to new orleans today. just found out this morning that christine can fly me down there. i don't know what i'm doing. it's not like i can afford to go somewhere out of town now. i still have some condo stuff to clear up now, but i think i can do that while i'm down there. just have to talk to people.

anyways, went to the amel larrieux concert last night at navy pier. that's some real music. soul. you can feel it when she sings. if you've heard her live or have her cd, maybe you know what i'm talking about, because there are no words to really explain how listening to her sing makes you feel. it was one of the best concerts i've ever been to. my fav song is 'make me whole' - perfect wedding song. she brought up a girl from the audience to sing this with her. a duet. give someone a chance to be discovered. and this girl tore it up. the crowd was crazy and listening to her brought tears to almost everyone's eyes. amel didn't even know what to do, she was so shocked by how real this girl sounded. amel told her later that she wants to manager her. i hope that girl makes it. she had a beautiful voice.

anyways, i had to say something about amel. thanks rach for the influence! she really was amazing. so peaceful.

have a good weekend everyone! take care.