.that.amazing.show.

i tell ya, that amazing race show is one of the best shows on television. for those game show fanatics out there, i highly suggest this one. and for those survivor die-hards, you must, REPEAT: MUST, watch this show once. i promise you will be hooked. and if you're not, then i question your taste in reality tv shows. if you are a competitor and like fast paced drama, this is by far the best show for you. no doubt in my mind. and if you're a gemini and are easily bored, i think you defo need to watch this show. it is a must. can you tell that i love this show? not to be cheesy, but it is amazing! there has never been another show ever in my 24 years of existence that has completely kept my attention and kept my interest level as high as this one. i can't wait for wednesday nights 9PM EST/ 8PM CST. it is the beloved hour of the week now. can anyone feel me out there?? i've asked everyone who i work with on this project, and no one seems to be in to it. i know of only 1 fan out there (alan)...i think it's my job now to start the cult. that will be my goal for the next month.

ok, so what the f*ck? how do little peons like me get motivation when the people who manage them leave work so early?? i don't get it. i feel like i have no direction over here. i'm trying, i keep prodding them to give me something to focus on, and more and more work, but it's like pulling teeth. i have no goal. no project plan. what am i working for? what is my ultimate goal? i don't think anyone knows on this project...

i just found out that i'm extended until the end of year. and for the client, that means dec 28th. but we'll see. i might get extended again. i guess i wouldn't mind. i'll get to build up more hotel/car/airline points. that'll be cool for once. but i'm already starting to get sick of packing up every week. i wish i could keep some of my clothes and toiletries here. but i don't know if i'd trust the hotel with my stuff. my toiletries are very important to me! can't let just anyone handle them...i know, i'm a little obsessive, but common...my shampoo and conditioner? sacred!

.sighting.

yeah, so i didn't actually have a sighting, but i did see a promo for the jay leno show tonight. do i even need to tell you who's going to be on it??

if you can't take the hint, then you haven't been keeping up with this site....set your vcr's everyone! woohoo! guess who's staying home tonight! yes!

.no.need.for.introductions.





.no.need.for.introductions.

learn.something.new.everyday

i think i need to learn more html for my own sake. then maybe i can make something of this web site. how sad is it? i've been very sporadic with updating it lately, and also with changing the format. i just need to sit down and teach myself something new at least every other day. i'm sure i will tire of that though. like everything else. i'm such a sas. sas sas sas.

so i worked out last night, after a filling dinner of sushi! yay me. it is the hardest to try to get back into working out when you quit for about a week. the motivation just isn't there anymore. and i still eat too many carbs throughout the entire day. what is wrong with me? it's like i have no self control.

it doesn't faze me at all that i'm stuck in a room every day with males. sometimes the conversations get a little too graphic for me. but i think i'm handling myself better than i thought i would. of course i get picked on a lot, and sometimes i think they bring up topics of conversation just to see my reaction. but whatever. it's not like any of these guys are too much for me to handle.

don't business people these days know what is taboo to talk about in the workplace? i swear religion comes up at least once a day here. is that really necessary? maybe it only bothers me because i don't know these people well enough to be comfortable with saying anything dumb. maybe it's my lack of knowing why i really call myself roman catholic...i just do because that's how i was raised, and that's what i'm comfortable with. i really don't feel like discussing religion at lunch every day. but that's just my opinion.

so i'm basically sitting here waiting for more work to come my way. it takes forever for me to get work around here. i'm just waiting for one guy to give me the work. and he's always so busy that it takes him forever to get to me. i think we need a process consultant out here. because this project could definitly benefit from a better process than how it is now.

yay, only 2 more days until i can go home! woohoo! i live for the weekends now. i'm such a bum. i know i should go out here more while i can, but there's no one to really hang out with. i could hang with the coworkers more, but i see them every day, all day...i don't feel the need to see them afterhours all the time too. do you?

maybe i'll go out to best buy tonight and buy christina's new cd. i also need to get j's cd next tuesday. everyone go out and buy a copy of it!

so i'm just rambling on about anything and everything. lets see, what else can i babble about? hmmm...my hotel room is finally well heated this week! maybe it's because i complained in the guest comments card last week when i left my room. i just hope next week at the sheraton is nice. can't wait to go to new york next week! hopefully it'll be a nice poopie floopie weekend....


happy hump day everyone!

.recommendations.

propel fitness water i may be wrong about this one, but i think this stuff has actually given me a good amount of energy today. i have never felt more alive here in woodcliff lake, NJ.


'beautiful' by christina aguilera i could listen to it for hours and not get tired of it. *sigh* you need to download this one now.

Beautiful
Written by Linda Perry

Everyday is so wonderful
Then suddenly
It's hard to breathe
Now and then I get insecure
From all the pain
I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful
No matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful
In every single way
Yes words can't bring me down
Ohh no
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends you're delirious
You're so consumed
In all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone
Left the puzzle undone
That's the way it is

You are beautiful
No matter what they say
Words can't bring you down
Ohh no
You are beautiful
In every single way
Yes words can't bring you down
Ohh no
So don't you bring me down today

No matter what we do
No matter what we say
The sun will shine your way
'Cause you are beautiful today

Everywhere we go
The sun won't always shine
But tomorrow's another day
So keep on looking to the sky

We are beautiful
No matter what they say
Words can't bring us down
Ohh no
We are beautiful
In every single way
Yes words can't bring us down
Ohh no
So don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down
Today

.vegas.baby.vegas.

2 weekends ago, i experienced vegas for the first time - legally! woohoo! of course it was tons of fun especially since it was just us girls. (and occasionally kyle came out with us) i didn't know how much fun a bunch of girls in vegas could be. we just went crazy. there's something about us being together in a crazy place and wanting to go out every waking hour. here's the gist of the weekend.....

go out, drink, meet new people, gamble, go home, sleep, wake up, eat a little something, sleep/lay out by the pool, get ready to go out, eat, go out, drink, meet new people, gamble, go home, sleep, wake up, eat at the buffet, sleep, wake up, get ready, eat at the buffet(yes, that's correct, two buffets in 1 day), drink, chippendales!, go out, drink, gamble, eat, sleep, wake up, pack, tearfully say goodbye one by one...and then there was one.

i thought i would sleep the whole flight home, but i sat next to this young lawyer and talked the entire flight home. we probably stopped talking for about 20 minutes of the ~4 hour flight. it was cool. i ended up telling him which celebrities i would leave the A for. and he told me his. just some random people talking. i wish i woulda gotten his 411, just for networking sake. he was a real cool guy, and i don't meet too many people who i can just talk to for a long time. but whatever. maybe we'll bump into each other again in the city.

needless to say, i spent much of last week just recovering from the weekend hiatus. a lot has happened at work too. nothing to definite right now, but i don't know what i got myself into here. i'm really just hoping someone from the GM project will be able to join me out here. i need some much needed company. i don't really click that well with the people out here. maybe i'm just not being open enough. but that's just my first impression of most of them.

i'm trying to plan this weekend with archie in nyc for next weekend. i can't decide where we're going to stay. but i defo want to spend 2 nights there. it wouldn't be a real get away weekend without actually staying in nyc. he might be mad about me wanting to stay there, but we should take advantage while we can, while i'm still out here. who knows how long it will last?

and let me close by saying. justin is all over the newspapers and mags. and i couldn't be happier. i am just in awe with every picture i see of him. no, i'm no stalker. i just admire him. a lot. and think he's the hottest little thing ever to walk this planet. and his music will likely make me obsess about him more and talk about him more in this thing. but does it sound like i care? nope. i don't really give a rats ass. i will freely admit (except to my coworkers) that i am in love with the boy. and to the claims which question how i can really love him if i don't even know him, i will say - have you seen the boy??! are you blind? because you must be if you are asking me that question. and if you have 20/20 vision, then you need to fine tune your tastes. because if watching j move and sing the way he does doesn't make you feel an ounce of want....then you shouldn't even be reading this blog.

.too.long.

well, it's been a long ass time since i blabbed about something. last time i wrote, i was in the comfort of my new condo and enjoying doing absolutely nothing. and now i'm in woodcliff lake, NJ in a hilton hotel room, trying to pass the time. turns out i got staffed a week and 1/2 ago, and will mostly likely be here for the next 2 weeks at least. it's not too bad out here. we're only 40 minutes outside of nyc (shopping shopping shopping!), and i earn hotel and airline miles! woohoo! what could be better? i think we are on actuals out here, but that's ok. i think i may have already gone over my per diem limit, if i do have a per diem limit. and i've been told that if things go well, i will be staffed out here for a while. that wouldn't be too bad. the people are ok. it's taking me a while to warm up to them. i think one of the reasons is because i'm in a room full of ibmers. and the stereotype that some people have of ibmers is mostly true in this room. but they're nice people. so it's all good. i just hope everything works out.

so since i've last written, lots of things have happened. i work at bmw and let me tell you how jealous it makes me to see these people driving nice ass cars for almost for free! and after 8 or 9 months, they can trade it in for another one. so for those of you who are looking for a new job, here's a thought. the next job you get, make sure you take into account the kinds of benefits you can get...and i'm not just talking about health benefits. if you can hook it up with a phat ride or a dope discount, then why not? go 'head wit your bad self. and milk it for all it's worth.

lets see...what else has happened? oh, i did finish the 5K. but not just leisurely walking. i was running . yes, your pretty little eyes read right. i ran the whole damn thing myself. but it wasn't just me. my friend (who also is my coworker), heather, willed me through the whole thing. she could have taken off and ran the best that she could, but she stayed back with me and talked me through it...gave me tips on what to concentrate on. a little encouragment. and somehow i made it. we all made it. 5K is easy for some people, but defo not me. i struggled. but i finished. and when it was over, i was proud of myself. i finally did something that i can be proud of. and it felt good.

then the next day, i was made one of the godmothers of sabrina (april's daughter). and then i was made prouder. i know that's not a word, but i was. very proud i was. yay me! harharhar.

then i came out to NJ. and let me just start off by saying that NJ is probably the worst state in the US to get lost in. you make one frickin wrong turn and it's over. you're set back 20 minutes at least. i almost missed my flight back home! but god was watching out for me, and somehow i made my flight. work out here is boring right now. and i don't see anyone working with urgency. they have a deadline at the end of this week, but i don't see anyone working late. is there something wrong here?? maybe that's just my jaded sense of working hard talking. maybe i'm just used to too many late night..working until midnight and later. 1 too many all nighters. but seriously, no one is working that hard to make this deadline. and i'm just a peon, so what can i say about it? nada.

and another good thing that's happened is that i found mary jill! she's my old high school friend, who i actually want to keep in touch with. but keeping in touch with her is like keeping track of a needle falling through a haystack. she seriously needs lessons. i just hope she contacts me if she moves or something happens to her. she moved out to hoboken about 2 years ago and works in the city. and somehow i found her on yahoo yellow pages. now i just have to keep track of her.

i can't believe october is almost over. time just flies. and now i'm traveling, just as jeff moved in. i feel bad for him. he's lonely in the condo. but this will just make me appreciate the condo and him more. i won't be back until late sunday night and then i take off again on monday morning....i feel lucky to have this kind of life. at least i get to experience it.

can't wait for vegas, baby, vegas!

.the.return.of.the.familiar.

tonight was the first episode of dawsons. god help me, i still watch that show. call me curious, but i just wanted to see if the writers thought up anything new. now, i don't know if they just wanted to get the obvious out of the way, but i assume that they did. where else can a show that is based on the main character's own creek, which btw is not based in the creek anymore, except to do the most obvious and fulfill the desires of their loyal audience who have been waiting for this moment since its inception 6 years ago? if you watched it, you know that i'm talking about joey and dawson. yes, they lost their innocence tonight.

and of course, the most obvious scene occurred afterwards. you know, that awkward moment. and how do they play it out? with the most dawson-joey like response. joey overanalyzing the entire situation and wondering 'what does this mean?'. and dawson calming her, and shutting her up with a kiss. so sweet. so very sweet.

but now i'm left wondering: where do they go from here?

on a tangent...that new boy is deeeelicious. he used to be on days, but for real, he was not this built on there. someone sure grew up. he's frickin hot!

and i suppose they have several different story lines with the other characters, but the basis of the show is still joey and dawson. it's basically all they have left from where they began 6 years ago. just joey and dawson. nice and simple. 'kinda hokey, don't ya think?'

with everything that has changed in the past 6 years, the two of them remain.

dawson is so damn sweet! geez...i don't even think i remember those days of romancing.

and then it happened. when it all seemed to fall apart. and not all the truth was told. and yet we hit another bump on the 'joey and dawson highway'.

and it was silly to think that they could just pick up where they left off before the summer. but there was that hope. they left so many things unsaid. so many hurt feelings. and that's where this episode ends.