waiting for the site to appear with a new skin...

so after 3 days of telling us that we did not have to work this weekend (the first full weekend in over 30 days), we found out today that we need to work a full weekend in order to get the weekend of 4th of july off....yes, it is partly our fault, because we will not get out scripts done by tomorrow. but still...the date will be pushed back, so why must this be a requirement to get 4th of july off? and we do get an extra day off, but i guess that doesn't matter on this project.

i miss my friends...i miss tv...i miss food from home...i miss reading magazines...i miss the mall....i miss shopping...i miss my life.

i'm leaving now because this fucking site will not be up again tonight. now where did i park my car?

i hate uat.

another year older...

very anti-climactic....but i guess it's ok..i wasn't expecting this huge hooplah, especially since i had to work...but it was actually a very awesome day. my team was so great, and in a peppy mood. i couldn't ask for anything more. we just had a crazy day. we worked hard, but we also goofed around a bit..just being silly, as usual. i don't think i could ask for a better team than this one. we do work well together...and even though the work itself sucks, the people are awesome. i don't think i can say enough about them. they make me laugh until my sides hurt..that doesn't happen very often. and we pick on each other a lot too, but it doesn't seem to bother anyone.

ya remember those games we played in college? you know, the ones where we said, 'not it!' when we didn't want to be DD? and then you had to make up some messed up sign, signaling that you're 'not it'? that's what our team does. whenever we don't want to order food or we don't want to do some kind of work. the last person has to get the food or do the work. our signs have kind of gotten out of control, but i love it. so last friday, we were in such silly moods, that we started a wave of 'not it' signs, which went all around the room....comraderie, i tell you. and then me and scot started singing the wgci birthday song...you know the one... ---

'now who's this on the birthday line?'
'it's my-ra. it's my-ra'
'and myra whats your zodiac sign?'
'it's gem-ini, it's gem-ini'
'and how old are you on this day?'
'i'm twenty-four, i'm twenty-four!'
'go myra, it's yo birthday, go myra, it's yo birthday myra where you from?'
'west side!'
'where you from?'
'downers grove!'
(i can't seem to remember the ending right now...i'll get back to you on that one....but you get the idea....)

oh! and my entire team was so sweet and bought me a birthday cake! and this ain't no regular yellow cake...this was a sweet mint chocolate chip ice cream cake! ya heard that? yes, you heard right honey, and mint chocolate chip is my favorite flavor of ice cream! like i said...one of the best bdays ever in my adult life...

so anyways, that's how fun last friday was. then my team let me leave early so that i could have dinner with arch, mari, and rach...(now isn't that nice?) i felt bad because they were stuck working on a friday night, but i thanked them profusely for it. and unfortunately, they couldn't make it out that night. oh well....next time we all go out, i have a feeling it's going to get interesting...

so i finally get to leave work early today. i stopped working around 8:30PM tonight, and now i'm just doing all the stuff that i haven't had time for the past 2 weeks...i can't believe i've worked the past 15 days straight....that's why it feels so wierd not being here all the time..i'm not quite sure what to do with myself now...i know that tonight, i need to do my laundry. shoot, i have to do my expenses too...eh, i'll do that tomorrow...

i'm sorry that i'm boring you with all this work talk..but seriously, i have nothing else to talk about in my life...friday night at zentra was fun as hell....some people stopped by who i haven't seen in FOREVER. so that was a very nice surprise. like justin, and darlene, and timmy...i think that i just need to get out more. i want to socialize more. and i'm sure i'll have more time in about a month or so...can't wait for that to happen..oh! and the biggest surprise...cheryl, ed, girlie, and nors bought me a tiffany's bracelet! oh yes! you read that right! it is a tiffany bracelet, honey...not the cheaper bluenile.com bracelet....the one that i've been wanting for the past year. and they bought it for me. uh huh...this girl is bout to be bling blinging all over the place! like i said this birthday was hella good.

lets see...what else happened? oh. well, i worked all weekend. and last night, to unwind, a bunch of us were just loitering up the joint around midnight...good times, i tell you...good times....there i go, talking about work again. well, like i said...work is about all of my existance right now. all of my existance.

*sigh* i miss my other life.

is it time to sign up for another aidsride?

*we'll think about that one*

i almost can't take it anymore. all the idle banter. and useless talk. and the extra work we have to do this weekend. and who requested the day off tomorrow? and who has to work? plus extra hours again this weekend? and next week? and who cares about this project? not i.


if i weren't buying a condo, i would probably just quit right now.


i just need sleep. then maybe i can write coherently.

i hate work.

i think that's all i can think of to say right now. after 5 days without writing....that's all i can say.

just a thought...

the looks...the chivalrous, caring attitude...what a nice cover..but is that the real person inside? i'll never know. but the mystery keeps it interesting. take advantage while you can, right? yeah, right. when it comes from a person who is nice and is caring, then whatever. it's all good. keeps things interesting...

work isn't too horrible lately. get to leave by 1030PM every night. woohoo. can't wait until next week when we can all party together. just having some fun would be great.

ok, i've got nothing interesting to say...i don't know how to say some stuff without compromising who they are. so i should just keep my typing fingers shut. shut it.

early morning...

what's the point in coming into work damn early, if the application doesn't even fricking work this early? i think it's trying to tell us something...that even it doesn't want to cooperate with us. and it's telling us that we need more sleep...and to go home....it's already 10AM and i've been here for almost 2 hours already...oh whoa is me. haha...how pathetic..

i'm thinking about doing the aidsride again this year. i don't think anyone from the team is going to do it again this year..everyone's got other plans...i'm not sure that anyone i know really wants to do it this year. there are a couple downsides to doing it this year. it's at the end of july - which could possibly be the hottest time of the year. however, judging on how the weather has been lately (2 months behind), it might not be that hot. also, the registration fee increased to $85...i guess it's not that bad..but then again, there was a lot of bad press last year after the ride because of reports that palotta wasn't properly allocating the funds. if you want more info on this years aidsride go to

blech, i feel horrible today...maybe it's just lack of sleep. i forced myself to have some coffee this morning because my head was hurting..and now i feel like crap. ugh. i think i just need to get out of this room...

early night...

well, it looks like i'll be able to get a better night's sleep tonight..but then again, i have to get here by 8AM tomorrow morning...oh well..give and take right? so we get to go home at 10PM since the build is going on now and then we have to get here bright and early...it's ok..i don't mind it so much, i guess..just sometimes i just need a break. and then i can continue working. i get so tired in the early mornings and afternoons, but i'm wide awake when it hits 8PM...i'm such a night owl...

so what has happened to this world? it's almost like the only form of communication is by IMing and YMing..it seems to take just too much energy to actually look a person in the face and talk to them or ask them a question...maybe it's just more fun to im/ym...after all, you do have emoticons and ymvironments to keep you busy..those can only enhance your im/yming experience...

what else can i do with my life? lets see...i can own my own pottery store and paint all day with the customers. how fun would that be? i could work at a bar or be a waitress? something functional, ya know? or how about nothing? and then i can do absolutely nothing and decide what i really want to do and enjoy. i could be a tv station producer? or work for a tv show? that would be most ideal. i just like organizing things, so i can organize things for a tv show or for anyone..i can plan their appointments and go shopping for them...ha, can you imagine, me...a personal shopper??! i'm sure i'd get sick of it eventually, but it would be fun in the beginning. that's for defo.

ok, i'm going to go home and sleep so i can come in bright and early tomorrow. fun stuff.

waiting for the tempermental site to come back up...

this is getting boring. now i see why everyone hates testing. it take frickin forever when the stuff doesn't work. so what's the point of testing now when we have to retest later? sometimes things work, and sometimes it doesn't..i guess whenever it feels like working for us it will.

ok, so here's the deal on steph's wedding. it's on May 24th, 2003. she already has her dress....woohoo! and she showed me what she would like her wedding band to look like, which by the way would look PERFECT with her engagement ring (show this to frode, steph *wink*wink)...i can't wait to start planning a wedding for me...not that that's going to happen any time soon..this is all pure speculation...anyways, steph's wedding is gonna be in pittsburgh....anyone wanna go? i'd give out the address, but i don't have it yet....

as you can tell, i'm running short on material....that's what happens when all you do is work for 14 hours a day, drive home, sleep, wake up, drive to work, and start all over again.

it's only tuesday...

as i wait for the site to come back up...

i absolutely love boyz II men...nothing and no other group compares. they have the best chill music...ever. i don't think there's any other music that can make me more relaxed...

their new album "full circle" comes out July 23rd...i hope they advertise more than the last album. i'm listening to a few of their tracks right now...check it out :


i'm so tired right now. and not physically. just everything else. i think it's just today though. maybe if i go home soon, i can go to sleep and start out fresh.

i wish i could quit. just up and quit. but with this condo thing, it ain't gonna work.

just breathe. in. out. in. out.

and maybe i'm just too tired to laugh anymore.

9:52PM...and the site is not up yet.

it's the occassional looks, i think. makes the shiver start. and the mind twirling and swirling. and then the what ifs. and then you realize you shouldn't really let the mind wander. or put yourself in bad situations...you know those 'bad' situations...but it's all good and fun and that's what makes the day pass by. drama mama..some people really live up to their zodiac sign.





daydreaming.

there's something about this one guy that intrigues me...is it the challenge? he does have charisma...but other times i'm intimidated by him...oh well..it happens. makes life interesting?

worked 10 hours yesterday..a sunday...i guess they never heard of 'resting on the sabbath' on this project. but what do you expect?

anyone know of any good chi-town clubs to go to? i'm lookin for house and hip hop...anyone? anyone? bueller? we're goin out next week, friday, for anyone who wants to join us...

i can't seem to think today...sorry i'm boring you...