.here.comes.january.

the start of the new year wasn't too bad. it was nice to see our friends all in one place...the countdown was a little dramatic, because my organization skills went down the drain, but what's a countdown without a little drama?? and everyone got a cheezy hat and some champagne/sprite, and we all threw those spiral thingys...good times...hope everyone had a happy new year!

it would be easy to say that i haven't written a lot lately because of the holidays but i guess that would be a copout. i have a lot to say, but not sure how to say it. so i'm just de-scrambling my thoughts in my brain first, before i say something dumb. i haven't quite been myself lately anyways, so whatever i write isn't really me. i'm not really feelin my last couple of posts. i don't even know what i've been saying. but whatever. the holidays are over, and now i can concentrate on paying off most of my bills. hopefully. i
just got an email about some impending layoffs by mid-january. mostly admin/finance/hr/it people...non-client facing staff. so i guess i'm lucky now that i'm part of the client-facing staff. but there are no promises that the client-facing staff won't get hit also. just cross your fingers...

i'm almost always surrounded by people, but there are those times when i just feel lonely. i think i've said this before, but the things that used to make me happy, don't make me smile anymore. maybe that's what's bothering me. how do people keep such happy faces up all the time? and how do they 'look at the brighter side' of things consistently? i guess it's part of their personality. throw some of that over here please...

felicity is on right now. it's the last season when felicity cheats on ben and things are all wierd with noel too...i really liked this last season, although i didn't really start watching it until this season anyways...we watched monsters inc last night too. that movie is just so cute. i'm sure i'll eventually buy that dvd...along with toy story...ahh, to be a kid again...

i love being on the beach...