.being.self.involved.

have you ever had a convo with someone who just talks about themselves? even though you haven't seen this person in 7 years, they don't seem to be interested in you at all...they just like talking about themselves? well, they may just not like silence, that's why they keep talking...but then you realize that they don't even care to ask you how you've been all these years...and it becomes even more apparent that they don't really listen well because when you do say something or ask them a question, they pause...and then say "what?" they aren't really having a convo with you, it's like their talking to themselves in their head. and then you end up thinking of ways to get out of there. whether you have to fake being sick or tired, it
doesn't matter. no amount of time is short enough to get you out of there quick enough. it's never really happened to me until recently. and i find the whole process painful. i mean, i can be a quiet person. but there are times when i can be loud as all hell. but when a person is that disinterested in me and my life, it makes me become even more quiet. i guess you can take it both ways. you could say that i'm too self involved, since i want people to ask me how i'm doing. but no, i didn't say that i didn't like hearing what the other person is saying and how they're doing. i love hearing about other people's lives. that's what makes me a good listener. but it really irks me when that's the whole conversation. that's it. like there's only 1 interesting person. ugh. ok, enough.

so i'm trying to figure out how to link a video to my site. i figure it's kinda hard, since i don't see many people's sites with this functionality. i'm sure all i need to do is ask around...if anyone knows, give me a shoutout.

oh, the disney store is having a sale on all their plush stuffed animals..they're so cute! the medium sized ones are $10, large is $20, and the huge ones are $30. the big dwarfs (from snow white and the 7 dwarfs) are only $20 each! what a steal! those would make cute xmas presents. but i have no one to give them to. oh well. i did, however, buy angel a cute eeyore (is that how you spell it?). i also bought sabrina a nice soft sebastian from the little mermaid. i figured that she would already have winnie the pooh stuff from gabrielle, so i should get her something different. i just like it because it's nice and soft and cute. the disney store is so cute! i could have just waited to buy it at home, so i don't have to lug it in my suitcase, but i didn't want to hit the disney store over the weekend. madhouse! esp with a sale like that...

i've found that i really don't like shopping for clothes anymore. i really need to be in the mood. i don't like just browsing, when nothing ever really fits me. and whatever does fit me isn't on sale. i think i'm in that wierd stage of not being sure how to dress. should it be hoochified? or professional? ack, who cares, right? but yeah, i was shopping for another top to wear this week, since i'm low on clothes, and just found that i don't like trying on clothes. it hasn't been that often anymore that i've found nice clothes to buy and wear. i just don't seem to care anymore. and i guess i'm losing my patience with trying to find something that fits me. blech.

ok, enough complaining..can we please be a bit more positive next time?? sheesh.