3.weeks.and.5.days...

so it's all really coming together. i'm feeling...ok for now. my mood swings are getting worse. pms for sure. so that makes me nervous because i don't want to be a total bitch the week of the wedding. shit. maybe i should try to skip my period or something next month. okok. TMI...just talking out loud for now.

planning...where i'm at...
i'm printing up the RD (i.e. rehearsal invites) tonight and also the envelopes. not making that many, since we thought of the idea of eviting 1/2 of the list and the other 1/2 get the paper invites. saved us some money and some time. pleased the computer literate AND illiterate.

stress level...
pretty high. if you've been around me the past week, you'd know. sorry to those of you who have been on the receiving end of it. i wonder if taking medication would help?!

work has been ok. not that great. but i'm trying really hard to stay focused and get my shit done, so i can work at night on the wedding. sometimes it doesn't work out that way because there are some things that i just have to do in the day, so that takes time away from actually working. but wortever. it's not like i feel invaluable. i'm highly replaceable. i think i still have my managers fooled...

the condo is a disaster area. seriously. it's never been this messy or dirty. there's so much shit everywhere. decorations. presents. invitations. rsvps. paper. ribbon.blah.blah.blah. i can't wait to clear this space out and go back to normal life again.

did anyone hear felicity huffman's speech during the emmys yesterday? so, so cute. and it's nice to actually see a hollywood marriage stable. at least that's how it looks now. knock on wood that it doesn't turn into an aniston-pitt, richards-sheen, mccarthy - ?, spelling - shanahan (?), etc... and she looked damn hot in her dress. and did anyone notice her guns?! damn, she must have hired a personal trainer over her hiatus. lucky duck.

i haven't been sleeping well for the last month. i stay up really late, am exhausted in the morning. you'd think the fact that i'm exhausted at night from the lack of sleep the previous night would make me to go sleep faster. usually it does. but lately...not so much. i lay in bed for a while now, just waiting for myself to drift off...it's not so easy anymore. is the stress? probably. it was so bad last night that i went to bed at 1. tried to go to sleep, then finally turned on the night light and started knitting...*sigh*...a walked in and said, 'are you crazy? why are you still awake?'

i'm tired of this forever feeling of 'there's still something else to do...' constantly over my head...there will always be something else to do. i feel like i don't have enough time to breathe. and poor m. she's working non-stop, so she can't really help me out too much...blah.

gotta go try to sleep....