.the.end.of.an.era.

even after the writing was horrible, even after the characters were acting out of character, and even when the storyline logic escaped me, i was still a fan. and last night was an end of an era. yes, i admit it, i cried for almost the entire episode. it was hella sad. the storyline was sad...knowing that this was the last time i would hear and see this idealistic banter for the first time. saying goodbye to what i've known since college. saying goodbye to my 'childhood'. i know i'm being dramatic. after all, i am talking
about dawsons creek. but it's not just dawsons to me. this show has idealized what every girl wants and dreams of in finding someone who loves them. they all have gotten together and broken up so many times, but they've all grown because of it. and it all came down to 5 years later, and 2 of them were still right for each other. 1 of them still made the other feel alive. that's how it should feel like when you're in love. i know i've written about this before, but this last episode epitomized everything that i believed the creek was to these 5 characters. the way that pacey looks at joey gives me goosebumps every time i even think about it. that's how every girl should feel. and it was so fitting that dawson and joey still knew that they were each other's soulmates, even if it meant that they wouldn't be together as a couple. pacey tried so hard to be the tough guy, but whenever he saw joey, he just melted. and you could feel that. joshua jackson did a brilliant job of displaying how pacey felt. i can't even find the words to justify the emotions i felt while watching these 2 on screen.

so thanks pacey, joey, dawson, jenn, and jack for giving me something to look forward to every wednesday night since the middle of college. you gave me an escape from this real world which i seem to keep putting off more and more...

what will i watch on wednesday nights now?


thanks to sid for opening his ears and giving me an earful last night. you da best, darling.