.sporadically.

i went to this crawfish boil dinner work thing last night. i don't think i've ever eaten crawfish...but it was damn good...a little barbaric to be eating and peeling crawfish right off a newspaper-lined card table, but hey, we're not eating the shell, now are we? good times. and i loved the two chocolate brown labs that were there too. so well behaved. i want to get a dog so badly! when i get a local job, that's defo one of my first purchases.

i'm still in the sporadic writing mood. again, it seems that my world is so stagnant. nothing really seems to be progressing as much as i thought it would. i'm almost to the quarter century mark. and what do i have to show for it? i take that back. i do have a good life. but i thought i would much more accomplished than i am right now. i have a college degree. a paying job. a boyfriend who always knows when i'm about to make an expensive purchase (how does he do that?). a small group, but loyal, close friends who i know i can always count on. and enough money to scrap by and still able to pay the mortgage. professionally, though. where am i?

i need to do more reading. but i just don't have the patience for it right now.

oh, speaking of patience. i've been thinking about getting a teaching certificate. i actually don't think i would mind being a high school algebra teacher. but probably only the honors class. that's where you know the students want to learn. or are at least inclined to study hard, because they don't know how to fail. major props to those teachers who teach in the inner city schools and are challenged every day. i would like to start out in the honors class and then maybe work my way down to a more challenging class. i would need to know how to relate to kids. and how to reason with them. esp with high school kids. that's the age when you really start thinking for yourself, so you tend to not listen to the teachers more and more. would i be able to take all that criticism? i don't know. but i think i would like to try. the only thing really holding me back is the salary. i would probably really just need to get a local job, take the classes to get my teaching certificate, and then get a job as a teacher. one of my problems with being a teacher though is that i am not as patient as i should be. and i doubt a lot of things people tell me. if they give me one impression of not being a reliable source, i discount almost everything they tell me. and completely disregard their opinions. teachers shouldn't do that. how horrible would that be for the kids? i know i will just think about this more and then maybe i can decide what i want to do. anything but business. blech.

i can't wait to go home. i love the weekends. i just feel uncomfortable here sometimes.