"Nightmares and dreams only stay alive if you feed it" - 'A Beautiful Mind'

i guess no one every really thinks about this until it is actually said. but in reality is very true. so either you can keep dreaming about what you want to do, and complain that you'll never get there (because of circumstances, etc)...or just live with what you do have and be happy with the decisions you make. just go forward with what you decide and don't waste time wondering 'what if?'....or else you'll never ever be happy. easier said than done. but it's something that i think everyone struggles with but may not come to this conclusion. sometimes, you just have to give up wishing and be happy with the hand you're dealt. those of us who are dreamers out there sometimes need a reality check...wake up and don't be afraid to make mistakes and do what you want to do.

lala weekend was a blast. having just us girls was a nice change. and seeing cj and how she lives her life right now was nice too. i know she misses all of us at home, but i think it's good for her to get out on her own and just be. the weather was awesome (a little cold, but at least it wasn't steamin), and we may have been cramped a little, but it's all good. i felt bad, though, because i knew that she had to study and we had an evening flight yesterday..hopefully she did ok on her exam today...

tokyo delve's on saturday night was so much fun. one of the best had dinners in a long while. but it wasn't just the dinner...the screaming, dancing, booty shaking on the chairs, saki bombs, etc...the waiters who were dancing like the village people...and the almost retired mom who was shaking her booty like she was 18...so much fun...and the food wasn't too bad either...and it was tacky as hell with all the xmas lights and extra stuff hanging from the ceilings, but it fit the mood and ambiance perfectly... afterwards we went to the highlands..this club in the center of hollywood..on the corner of hollywood and highland, right next to the kodak theater. i have to say i loved the music, since it was so danceable. and the bartenders were pretty cute. and very nice. i read reports that the bartenders are mean or something, but i don't remember that at all...i don't have a lot of experience with the la nightlife, but i have to say, i really liked this one.

so let me rewind back to that friday...we waited just about 2 1/2 hours to get into the taping of 'the other half'! but it was pretty cool, seeing how they tape talk shows...a lot of it is staged, but i guess that's how everything is on tv....oh well...that's what they mean when they say you can't believe everything you see on tv...ali landry was there too, watching her bf, mario lopez, so that was pretty cool. it was the last taping of this 1st season of the other half..oh yeah, and shemar more was there too! woohoo! what a hottie! that was a defo bonus....mmmmmhmmm.....break me off a piece of that!

anyways, the weekend was fabulous and it just reminds me of how much i love lala. it may be busy and have too much traffic to deal with, but i love it. absolutely love it. maybe i can move out there one day, if circumstances permit...

oh boy..there goes those damn dreams again...